Window of Opportunity

She has the time. For a few more weeks. The money is available. You’re single.

Though now there is someone that’s now on record as wanting a next level with you… and you really need a resolution soon.

It’s honestly not fair to ask for anything from the Crow. And yet… you have to; logistics being what they are… 😔

Just a simple friendship visit would require you being single; Any woman you were with that saw her visit you would become tragically insecure within seconds, and truth be told, you didn’t want pressure for anything past a friendship visit anyway because you understand she’d need time.

The only thing standing in the way is her stubbornly keeping a relationship that she knows has no future, with someone she knows will never change.

There is literally no downside. And yet… she waits. 

What terrifies you is the idea of all the stars aligning except the one that won’t last, and the opportunity vanish.

Then for it to fall apart later and you still not get your chance.

Why? Because it never works for you – and you can already see it coming. The disappointment. The regret afterwards just like the regret she had for inviting him back in two weeks before you visited.

Oh well, missed your chance – yet again. Yet fucking again, as the universe shrugs with that eternal shit eating grin.

Even with the Crown here desiring you to hold her, the universe taunts you… 

Just like Match, eHarmony, that friend your friend was going to introduce you to before the trip got canceled, and literally every single time a door opened and got slammed in your face.

Everything is in place but the splinter that just won’t go away, even when it is slowly going away.

Sigh… No negative vibes. No pushing. But this is the chance. You can live with Yes or No. But this Question Mark is a noose around your neck.

Now is the time. The Timing is as close as it will ever be – for both of you… but it’s razor thin.

May she use any excuse she needs, and just have the courage to do what you did in January. Take the Leap.

Think outside the box. Be decisive. Take a chance. It’s not like he’d kick her out of her house. It’s not like she owes him anything, especially at this point. He’d be right there at the airport when she got back, begging for her to go back to paying his bills.

You need to be strong though. If she goes back to work without having come to see you, just accept it. And just hope and pray that if she ever is interested in visiting you haven’t found someone else.

Because that would be… devastating. And you’re really not sure what you would do.

Hope is a jackass.