Warmth

Waterfront park downtown. Amazing place that’s boring to visit alone.

Things just don’t feel nearly what used to. There’s so many things you don’t understand. So many things. You have your limits, but short of them you can accept things for how they are in order to get through the day-to-day.

Things with Him are mending…well seem to be. You miss going to church. Not enough to go while it’s at a high school yet. Hopefully that construction finishes soon. In the meantime, you really need to reconcile your shallowness on the matter.

You wonder what’s going on in her world. She’s being so distant, but you trust that she has her reasons for pushing you back. That trust is very difficult considering everything you’ve been through, but if you are True, you’ll manage. You are worried about her, but not over what she’d think. You miss her. But even you can read the tea leaves right now.

You felt guilty even going on a date Saturday, but you were doing what she said to – and wanted her to know. Deep down you think you knew nothing would come of it. You don’t run into the sheer volume of Walls you do without recognizing you’re being…guided.

Work is better. A little bit at least. Not much else to say just yet. Promotion was good and now it’s time to deliver.

Folks are being the folks. You’re avoiding them, though you don’t know why. Fixing that needs to be a priority. Screw insecurity they won’t be here forever.

If there’s one thing you would ask for right now it’s…meaning.

For now just enjoy the warmth; what warmth there is. And be thankful.

Always be thankful.