Ren Fest

Flame still burns brightly it seems. Beyond excited to join you for a Renaissance Festival visit without anyone in her family knowing. She wanted to go alone with you but you know better.

The Celt and her little girl will be chaperones, though the little one won’t have a clue. Celt is fine with it. Much as you ought not to be, you are too. Thank God for the Celt.

You’re not a jerk; let’s see if you can prove it.

Things elsewhere are slowly stabilizing. Work really has picked up at a perfect time to help keep your mind away from wounds taking a long time to heal.

Aside from neighbors instantly going from being fine for eight years into insufferable nosy busybodies overnight thanks to the Celt pressure-washing in a bikini while you were at work, you haven’t faced much additional stress lately as you slowly try to recover from the last two months.

She is beyond junky and it is annoying, but she promised to take care of things and needs very little stress herself right now, so it is causing you to be more organized on your own – something you needed to work on anyway.

Funny how God does stuff like that. Always in the background, throwing balls of stress at you that – if you handle them the right way – lead you to significant benefit down the road.

And if you don’t? Well, whose damned fault is it? Yours – because you’re not a narcissist.

It’s been an extended period of anger and frustration; easily the worst since your arrogance cost you your home 13 years ago. But ironically as dark as things have gotten, the light deep down just won’t let it consume you.

That doesn’t mean you’re not daily in a mood where you feel it’s best to keep some pushed away from you; Then with some things you’re just trying to figure out what to do with long-term.

On those fronts anger (and worse) is not subsiding. That’s worth some concern, because anger is a terrible companion.

So yeah, be carefree for a while. All this is preparation for something bigger coming down the pipe just like it always is. And you’re going to be thankful that you’ve been tested.

So work hard. Enjoy the little things. Pray for guidance. Take responsibility for your actions. Don’t fuck a married woman. You have one week and one day before Ren Fest. Just get through it.