It’s not your fault.

You can hide. You can stew. You can find other things to fixate on.

But you’re still in love with her. And there is a reason why things are happening even now. Despite the frustration, anger, and worse… you still love her.

July 7th, 2019 was the happiest day you have had since the day you walked across the Cistern. Twenty-Five years to the day since your first date with the Flame, just being with the Crow, finally taking her on that date you’d waited for so long…

It was nothing – nothing – short of magical. You just cannot comprehend how things turned out, beginning two weeks after you got home. Even as you saw it coming yet again.

Since then… something changed. That unique connection you couldn’t explain… gone. You ‘feel’ (‘sense’?) nothing from up there anymore. Maybe it’s just dormant. Maybe not. And honestly that’s fine.

You don’t know what to make of the experience that Tuesday night a month or so ago when praying. But that and the Celt’s words are why you still remain.

Damn, you need a release. Keeping it bottled up… is taking a toll.

For now… just be there, Atreyu. Just be there. And Trust in His Words that spoke to you that night.

Be there for her. But leave her be. Until she can remember what makes her so beautiful, it’s just for the best…