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Well here you are again. It’s taking a week before you feel like really taking in and dealing with it. Good old wartime economy. The fear… well more like terror… of unemployment has still got to be play part of your subconscious but it hasn’t kicked in yet. How is it facing the thing that scares you more than anything else is something you honestly would prefer facing then if you were stuck in that cramped cubicle dealing with constant negativity towards the end at work? 

Having lunch with the folks was stressful as one would always expect but then they mentioned something that honestly you have kind of thought about in the back of your mind for a while now; you just didn’t know what to call it.

They said they’ve noticed you’ve been being more forgetful, and wondering if it’s possibly MCI. Well if that’s the playground that you’re destined to end up playing in, Who knows? There’s no real reason to save for retirement since you won’t even really be there LOL.

The normal stuff can start in the early 40s and you’ve probably had all kinds of brain chemical crap go on we’re taking a narcotic stimulant three times a day for 28 years.

Celt’s New job started today – literally perfect timing – oh what an another amazing coincidence that couldn’t possibly be God’s plan… Ironically she said she was glad because now she could take care of all the bills and start paying you back. OK. You weren’t counting. You never count.

She was even suggesting now might be the perfect opportunity to take some time to address some health concerns that you wouldn’t have time to in a 9 to 5. Who knows.

You probably won’t. Blow it off all you want but it really scares you. The second half of your life is supposed to be more real. You didn’t accomplish half of what you wanted in the first part.

So what’s next?