Elevation

Define Irony… keeping up with the News is essential given current events; yet it leads one to anger and frustration at so many voices in the world that know as little and yet have as strong opinions on what little they know as you do. LOL Step #1 in problem solving is always admitting you have a problem. Trying to reorient yourself away from negativity is a chore given the circumstances, but that only means it’ll be even more worth it in the end. 

The folks are doing alright; thank God they’re taking things seriously. Worried about you as always. Your money is precarious, but help is on the way there. It still burdens you not to have the means to come to people’s aid if they needed it, but it’s only temporary. Still can’t feel any difference cognitively from sleeping arrangements. Really hope this thing begins to pass soon so the Mayo Clinic will consider other ailments again. Nonessential means nonessential, and your problems are that. It’s nothing to be upset; far from it. Be thankful you don’t need essential treatment.

The Titanic sank 108 years ago today. Their needs were essential. Same for the victims of the Boston Marathon Bombing seven years ago today.

You missed a perfectly good Supermoon the other night thanks to cloud cover. Could be worse though. God willing, next year at this time things will be so different. You’ll not be worried about whether you can read something and comprehend it. That alone is worth celebrating. You’ll be back where you need to be – in charge of your own life and hopefully having a job that fits you more like a glove than the last one. You realize now the quality of character of people you work with is actually far more important than you had realized.

Relax; you’re not the most observant guy on Earth; you learned that years ago but had forgotten. It was at Dad’s retirement dinner from his company; you spoke in front of everyone and thanked everyone he’d worked with for making such a positive environment for him to be him in. It was a moment you will never forget; nor was it a toast you’ll ever be able to exactly remember. Just another sign. You’d prayed for the right words. The ones you spoke weren’t yours. They were so much better. Came with so much ease, like you were channeling wisdom from a lifetime of experiences in front of brilliant high-ups. Sure fooled them, lolz…

“It’s really easy to go to work every day when you love what you do. When you don’t love what you do, you can get by but you have to put on a mask. You can’t be yourself, and that’s what we always want to be….”

Pretty sure that’s how it got started. You wanted to thank them for being a cooperative, collaborative environment; the kind Dad thrived in. He didn’t have to wear a mask. He could just be himself. And he excelled. Well paid, well respected, well traveled… and every year he’d come home the day after his annual review with a smile on his face and said “Good news! I still have a job.” Because he never took it for granted.

That’s what you want. Something that fills you with a sense of belonging. Same way with finding a church. Searching for a new one back in 2012 seemed like it took forever. Self-righteousness pisses you off. Makes you hate it when you feel it in yourself. But you try to get past it; not much else to do. Personal faults are mere obstacles if we see them and fight them. All you can do is be thankful it’s not something you suffer from too badly – and then watch it to try to make sure it stays that way.

Our relationships with others tell us so much about ourselves. Not just friendships, family, or loved ones. Who we are around affect us. Spending eight hours a day at work with someone miserable and eager to share it over the course of many years can grind on one’s soul as easily as being in an abusive relationship. 

You want elevation. Can feel it. That time of year when you feel Table Rock calling you. Your home is by the Sea… but as soon as its safe to go, you need to go. This is the time you need to work on yourself. Be thankful for it, and don’t waste it…