Waiting

He loves making you wait, doesn’t He? Lol Probably not, it’s just good for you. Impatient American. When you read history books they generalize a period between, say, 1610 and 1620.

While when you live through Something rough that involves a lot of waiting, time seems to stand still.

Three months ago almost no one had heard of coronavirus. Three months doesn’t seem like a long time. Fascinating.

Wait and be patient. Anger doesn’t disappear even when vented. Grace doesn’t just appear because you’ve decided you need it. As amusing as it seems it’s almost beneficial for you to be the serial procrastinator that you tend to be because procrastination just might be evidence of someone with more resolve for waiting…

Whatever you’re totally making that up because you’re trying to put a  spin on it. Screw it, this is your blog and you’re going with it. Cash that in for something positive for once. 😂

He’s here all right. All the buildup though followed by the disappointment of  nothing changing.  fascinating because that’s actually what the book of Ezra was all about.

You learned that last night, but you didn’t actually figure it out  until just now. Meta points within points. All illustrated directly to you in your life. When you actually can sit down and focus enough to read it it is amazing how it comes to life within your life.

Just some thoughts. You have stayed up with Flame watching Futurama episodes together while texting the last few nights. She’s never seen it before.

Be patient for the mayo clinic too. Waiting for the scheduling, which is done by triage so they have a review process and might get to tell you “we’re not going to help you overcome this beast of a problem that is sidelining your entire life.”

Which is probably going to be the answer for various reasons; most notably because it’s about time for you to actually have to go through something again. It’s alright. You can take it. Someone else might need that help more. Find a way through.

High hopes, dashed. Again. Just like when they tried to rebuild the temple, and all the usual suspects jumped on the way to stop them in the form of their own hubris.

It’s alright. You are no stranger to waiting for things you desperately hope for, or disappointment. Find some purpose though… that’s what you need most of all right now.

Sleep well. Tomorrow will be the next part of the waiting and my goodness you don’t want to miss that… 😂