Business Applications Solutions Specialist. Requirements: accounting applications, Microcomputer spreadsheets, Microcomputer database, Microcomputer word processing, Advanced microcomputer applications, microcomputer multi media concepts and applications. each course with its own prerequisites. 15 credit hours.
Significant need for career shift; greater need for individual job satisfaction and income. Return to actual career. Need to give more. Be more to give more. Provide more. How you’re wired; a need to matter. Why not?
It pissed you off so much the year you graduated to learn that more black men went to prison then to college the year before, 1999. Started you off with a desire to work in financial aid at a college. Your college. Help folks be able to afford a future in such a way that they’re not screwed afterwards. You tried so hard to get into that field; Used networking connections; Played the game, and then finally discovered how much contempt you had for it. Who you knew. Not what you know. Goodness though… the kind of people that you could know. But the game sickened you, so you turned your back on it. Chose to fight and scratch and claw. Even then you took the easy route. Not that it wasn’t a good thing to help the folks out in the business for a while. You were the bosses kid, so there was no reason to expect anyone to like you. You came in late, but you also stayed late when you needed to. Not a lot of people have spent all night at the office before. Contributed to the arrogant phase. Ironic. If you weren’t so hell-bent on trying to be humble, you might not have gone through that.
It’s not like they’re worth millions; they aren’t. They have enough to live comfortably And they’re going to make sure you’re okay. You’re set. Well, set enough since you never had kids and you have no one else to provide for.
But there’s…what burns in you. What you really can’t stand. The idea of being set… Oh, don’t kid yourself, it’s reassuring… But sitting around and not making anything of yourself just isn’t possible. You desperately want to provide for someone. At the very least, yourself. You just feel some calling to do more or be more. That’s not a credit to you; it’s a credit to the folks.
And you know what you want the most. Build a company from the ground up? Eh. Not for your sake. Help others in waltzed their dreams? Now we’re talking.
You’re not the fighter from D&D. Not the priest. Not the paladin or the Ranger. God help you… you’re the Bard. Can’t do shit on your own. Big bonuses to the group, though. It’s even the way you played Halo with the guys. Mason amazing on defense if he has the rocket launcher. Matt devastating if he has the sniper rifle. You let the other guys worry about the kill counts, you took it upon yourself to be the guy that got the weapons to those that could use them. Never lost one of those LAN matches.
Sucks for you out here in the real world, doesn’t it? You can’t do shit without other people. And you want to do so much. And if you can’t figure out how you can fit in… maybe you could just do so much for just one person.
Though true you form even then though, you can’t do shit without them. You don’t want to talk about it. But the idea of people not wanting to be more… Fine. But why the hell are they proud of it? Because far too many are, and you cannot comprehend that. You’re 43. You can’t respect that anymore. You see absolutely no reason to sink down when you have everything you need to rise up and try your best to carry people with you. It wounds you so deeply. Whatever. You could tell her everything and she still wouldn’t know. You know because you already have. On three substances and she still couldn’t find what she found when she came to church. And then a desire to go back down that path of emptiness? What, rolling the dice on cocaine three or four times wasn’t enough? Thank God she didn’t hear what actually came out of your mouth. But she didn’t get anything, so take comfort in that. 
Enough. Just shut up and let it be enough. Let the pain and anger dissolve away. You want so much more for her. But that doesn’t matter if she has no interest in more for herself. Still up to her. You just know the kind of person you are striving to be… and understand the world for the way it is. Sets your stomach in knots and you don’t need that. Even now… just breathe.
Just breathe. He has a plan. For her, you, and everyone else. And there’s not a damn thing you can do for her or anyone else until you are true to the only thing you can control… your role in His plan for you.
Okay. Alright. So how would a business applications solutions specialist Address the problem of not knowing the right career?
Pfft… you don’t have a clue. You’re just played the game the way you ought to have from the beginning and met a friend of your dads who was in a position to toss out some advice. And that advise lead to a course outline. And you don’t have a clue. You really don’t and it’s kind of funny. 😂
But you’ve prayed. And tried to learn from your mistakes. And you feel like this is the path. You really have no idea what to expect. And honestly at this point you finally are confronted with actual consequences for your actions in the one area that you can’t be “set” in… Time.
You just have to do something… and this seems like the path you asked to be led to. And you’re sick of waiting. You know this is going to lead to something. Because you have good faith in your heart, and eternal optimism even if it’s foolhardy. 
Don’t waste one minute when you have found a trail to follow. Doesn’t even have to be a path yet, much less a plan.
Be patient. Nothing worth it happens on our schedule. 🙂
It’s Not a Frame of Mind 