Fear?

Something wants you to feel fear. You don’t have a clue what or why. You know it’s the dawning of a new time. So why hold back? It’s not about you. It’s about God, and her. You know the feeling of being in His presence. Just the two of you. How overwhelming it was.

You know you have fear because your mind is downplaying things. Distancing itself even maybe.

How do you know she’s going to “get it right”? If you live in such loving, warm certainty, why wouldn’t you want to be the one to barge in and voice all your concerns? Try to Micromanage her experiences?

You know… be stupid? Lol so easy to answer ones own questions. 😂

If she reaches out to God with all her heart… Seeks the salvation of Jesus… He will handle it.

Your fears are adorable… but worldly. And given your own struggles… It kinda just makes sense to let Him handle it. He is smarter than you most of the time. 🤔

Your fears come from the most caring place in your heart… but they aren’t helpful. They represent not having enough faith in God that you’re worried what might happen.

There’s a duality involved – as there always is. This must be her journey. But she can’t do it her way. You can’t tell her you’d do it differently. But you’re worried she might miss what God wishes for her be insisting on “her way” instead of His path.

Given the past, that’s understandable. But ultimately… This just isn’t about you. And so you wait. Anxiously like a kid at 4am on Christmas morning. You can tell because you’re distracted.

You’re worried she’ll “not do it right”.

What is the right way? Her listening to God. Talking with Jesus, not you. How do you know she’s really listening to God? Not something else?

Because… God. If you have faith in God’s actions, there’s your answer.

For once in your life… maybe the tendency to ignore stress will lead you to do what’s best – shutting up so she can hear God.

Every meal though. Prayer for her. Every few hours. Prayer for her.

Trust God. His plan. His will.

And trust her. Her future will be more joyful than her present… and she is on the path. 🙂