So much noble sentiment. So much you get. So much you see clear as day. So much is part of you. Sometimes it makes it difficult to see parts of the horizon you sailed past long ago. The questions you asked; the certainty you sought. It wasn’t nearly to the level of others, but you did have those questions. The difference was the times in your life where you saw plain as day the Truth and could only comprehend what it meant for you when it did. That was enough. 
Even now you really don’t feel much pulling you towards church and fellowship; two things that you know are very important to you in your journey. That’s gonna have to change. Covid’s making too many people comfortable being hermits. You’re not really the gregarious guy jumping into crowds, but you sure need to miss the normalcy of other people. Small groups. Friends. Etc. it’s who you are, and who you will be as soon as everything gets normalized again.
In the meantime take heart from the miscellaneous bits of inspiration and draw strength from them. 
You are out of alignment now and there’s no reason to pretend otherwise. Things will be fine soon, just focus on what’s important And let Him guide you – and remember you’re not immune to anything. 🤔
Try to rest. Big week ahead.
It’s Not a Frame of Mind 