Get out of The Way.

Spent. Tired. Weary. Yeah, you’re in The Way now. Your attitude has been getting more and more… well… probably best called sullen as of late.

You’re just tired of it. All of it. She knows you think about her every day but she doesn’t know how much. Would probably bother her.

Doesn’t matter. There is literally not a damn thing you can say, case you can make, anything whether relentlessly logical or purely emotional.

You once mocked her out of frustration. Literally no matter what he did she always brought him back in. Literally no matter what. Literally. No. Matter. What.

You said you hoped he never actually hit her because then she’d never leave him. Well that’s one hell of a regret now.

Fucking Stockholm. Conditioned response “but I deserved it because of what I did”. Exact same damn thing no matter what said action is.

It’s the gaslightingly emotional abuse that started this wagon that’s your real concern.

And even if you are completely off-base… it’s still freaking toxic no matter what.

Pat yourself on the back that you managed to hold your tongue from the nasty plunging fire in the form of sardonic babbling you’ve kept from her so far.

And now take that with the bitter pill that you deserve – and recognize that maybe you have a fucking control problem too and that’s why you’re so pissed off.

Because it certainly looks like it. Oh whatever just admit it. 😒

And yet…

…she says…

She’s considering a lot of Jesus stuff right now. And she might be tuning into Pnuts soon.

While you’re feeling this way. Great.

Well, save some of that indignation for yourself. No – you’re not perfect… but you made it very clear that you could not get in the way of your desire for her to find Home.

You need to go in a different direction for a while. You are in absolutely no position to be of any benefit to her with what really matters right now.

It is deep down what you really want for her most of all. At least that actually is the truth even as strongly as you have your own desires as well.

But if she is to develop her relationship with Jesus… you need to leave her be. You are causing problems. Or will as that side you keep hidden gets more ornery.

There are two facts you need to understand more than anything else right now:

1) She owes you nothing in terms of explanation or consideration regarding the choices she makes.

2) If she chooses to follow Jesus, literally nothing else matters.

You are your problem right now. Not her.

Take heart from the fact that you have given her your concerns. She has given you her word that she would consider your Stockholm assessment – which means she has and will.

SHE will decide what is best for her.

Interesting question… if you could override her decisions… would you? That’s not something you believe in. You believe in individuality, freedom and personal responsibility.

And yet… yeah. Yeah you would. So you’re a hypocrite too. Great.

That’s not protecting her… WTF is wrong with your head right now???

Sigh.

General rule of thumb whenever your faced with tough choices:

Choose the harder path. It’s somehow literally always the right one.

Take some time away from her.

You are in The Way.

And frankly you really need to work on you for a while too. You didn’t realize how far off course you’ve gotten.

Jesus is what matters. For both of you.

Springtime in the Holy City is coming. This is a good time to do some centering. For both of you.

And don’t get this way again. However she feels about you, she knows you’re better than that – and sure needs you to be.

Now go be better. Eat your vegetables. Get out of The Way.

And do the Tomcat post. That was a neat idea. A better idea than being an idiot at least.