Emotions

They’re Roller Coasters.

So pissed off today.

It’s a warm 70ish degrees with azure skies uncluttered during the day. You want to even work outside and feel the cool breeze in your hair. At night it’s in the 50s, with those winds chilling just enough to justify a fire at night.

The Holy City in springtime. Beautiful day after beautiful day. Flowers. Trees. Wind. Birds. Sunshine. Bliss. Joy. Rebirth. What you’d been as excited as a wet dog for her to finally see. And she’s missing it.

She’s missing it all.

And you just don’t understand why.

Now she just texted. Upset about a hiring background check. It’ll work out. Might not even show up. People here don’t care about pettiness like they do in that cage. Even if it doesn’t, somewhere else will. She worries too much. It’s one of the reasons you were good for each other. You have faith in her ability; couldn’t walk where you’ve walked otherwise. She needs to have more faith in herself. Less narcissism (her words)… and More faith.

You aren’t pissed at her. You are, but you aren’t. If you were pissed at her… you wouldn’t care what she was missing.

But that’s why you’re pissed.

She’s missing it. She’s missing so much. And you can’t do anything about it.

Lord, please lead her. Give her Your Grace and Your wisdom. Guide her and help her find Home. Supposedly Four crows says she knows she’s on a spiritual journey. Help her experience the warm, positive changes she needs to make. And they begin with her taking steps to address what’s wrong in her life.

If she’s going to miss so much… please just make it worth it.

Just… wish she was here…

Gonna wait till later tonight to post. Reasons…

Need to get your mind elsewhere…