Lessons Learned

OK good, you’re excited about burning 1000 cal a night at the gym. You don’t need to push past 1100 yet. Don’t wait till the end to do the weights either.

Stay off the couch at night. Move furniture around if you need to. But sit in the stupid recliner so you don’t doze off. You sleep light, Hurt your throat, remember your dreams, and aren’t much good the next day.

Sick of it. The longer she’s in your thoughts, the more you remember how she left your life instead of all of the love and joy she brought into your life. The only thing you have control of now is how you remember her, and you don’t want anger to be a part of it. You’re doing better each day but your subconscious needs to cut it out.

You say you want God to lead you. Good to hear. What does that mean? Try to be a decent person during the week and make Church on Sunday? Read a chapter in John when you remember to? Sure, talk to Him here and there. Good job, genius.

Do what you’ve always done, get what you’ve always got.

Until you have any better ideas, One hour a day with Him. Not chatting while you’re doing something else and getting distracted. Read. Listen. Pray. The deep kind on your knees with your eyes closed if that’s what it takes.

You want genuine, real, positive change in your life. Something to push you forward. For a while you had that – someone who was strong where you were weak – but you don’t anymore.

Redevelop your focus. If you want to listen to hymns while you’re on the treadmill, that’s fine. Bible videos maybe not because it’s easy for the mind to wander. Figure it out. One hour each day. Don’t care what.

Transformative positive change isn’t changing your frame of mind; it’s changing your state of being. You know very well there is only one way to do that, and that is to Seek Wisdom.

Dad‘s surgery scheduled for July. mentally he’s already in planning mode just in case. Lawyers. Financial planning. Wanted your opinion on some things for after. Told him to do whatever. If you got more than you needed, it was going to charity. He said he was glad to hear that and asked what charities. He just loves planning so he wanted to put them in there. Maybe it was a test. Who knows.

You wanted three. They’ve already got the first one – local food bank – on their list. You know the animal society, and trust them. You were thinking about habitat, but heard some things and want to do more research. If not you’ll find something else. The third will be a faith-based crisis pregnancy center. If habitat doesn’t pan out maybe the second will be an adoption agency.

The next few years are going to be a roller coaster. Well, another one. Don’t sell yourself short; you’re making a lot of positive progress and things are going to take time. You’re doing the things you need to be ready when certain times come.

You’re finally starting to feel warm with God again from time to time. You know that’s the only way to get what you want to go.

So get closer to God. Every day let Him lead you. Get a new hobby. Something fast. Look at paramotoring. You’re close enough to middle-age to go ahead and have your crisis. 😂

Now wind down and get some rest. Have some positive momentum going into Friday night. God knows how much you loathe them.

But end on a good note. 1100 calories. 😃