Proverbs 31 (I)

The Sayings of Lemuel

1 “The sayings of King Lemuel contain this message, which his mother taught him.

2 O my son, O son of my womb, O son of my vows,

3 do not waste your strength on women, on those who ruin kings.

4 It is not for kings, O Lemuel, to guzzle wine. Rulers should not crave alcohol.

5 For if they drink, they may forget the law and not give justice to the oppressed.

6 Alcohol is for the dying, and wine for those in bitter distress.

7 Let them drink to forget their poverty and remember their troubles no more.

8 Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves; ensure justice for those being crushed.

9 Yes, speak up for the poor and helpless, and see that they get justice.”

Such a great chapter to lead you in the direction you’re supposed to go in such a great chapter to lead you in the direction you’re supposed to go in. The first part is about what you need to strive towards. The second part is about who you’re striving to find.

But if there’s one thing you have learned, it doesn’t matter who she is if you aren’t who you need to be. That isn’t a mistake you’ve only made once; you’ve never been who you need to be. Don’t beat yourself up; no one ever is.

You constantly work towards it… or you don’t. Some people have the luxury of finding their Proverbs 31 mate along the way, each complementing strengths and compensating for weaknesses.

And, well, looking at the time, that’s not going to be you. So keep building. Brick by brick. It was OK to miss the gym in a week after you’re recovering from being sick. Mom and dad are both back from Covid, and you’re thinking you got a false negative, but you kicked into high gear later in the week and accomplished a lot (finally it seems) after a rough start to the week.

Somehow you did not regress weight wise during the week despite missing the gym, which feels great. Don’t ask yourself why just accept it, lolz

Mom‘s birthday is Sunday. She’ll be 39 again. Finally you’re having a little extra money so nice flowers at the shop Bill came from. Dad‘s spinal surgery next week. You’ll be there all day Wednesday to help since Mom can’t lift much anymore.

Reaching out to God on your own is tough. But it’s clear that you have to cross some sort of threshold to keep going forward in the positive ways you want.

The first part of Proverbs 31 is the kind of man you need to want to work towards becoming. King Lemuel, whoever he was, was raised by a wise woman who taught him well how to run his kingdom. Considering every person has their ‘kingdom’ in a sense, it’s beyond applicable.

You’ve tested yourself to make sure you don’t have a problem with alcohol, but in the context of the verses, It seems to apply to a lot more. Overall responsibility and putting yourself in a position where you can be of benefit to others less fortunate.

Ostensibly that’s what you’ve been trying to do repeatedly for the past few years and failing.

Every.

Single.

Time.

Whether it was the epitome of the one you’d been waiting for, platonic concern for a friend and her daughter, or anywhere in between, you have tried so hard to try to encourage others to recover from their darknesses. To push for positive changes in their lives. To encourage them to be happy, if not give everything you have within your power to give to see them so.

Celt… Crown… Flame… Crow… You keep trying to help others. None wanted to have happier lives enough to actually justify the time, energy, prayer, stress, money, or anything else you put on the line trying to help them find more. All wallowed in or returned to their cesspools of drama and pain; at least the ones that survived.

You want to improve yourself. No one else does. Even if this isn’t the case, it must be the truth as far as you’re concerned, because you obviously just don’t know any better. So be the one that actually learns the lesson you claim you swear by.

Alright, enough. Can the cynicism. Sure it’s okay to be depressed; you’re not gonna be here forever and you just need to regain your passion. Would be nice to know how long though. 🤔

To that end, try to stop thinking about other people. It’s counterintuitive, because at first glance it seems selfish. But you need to fix your eyes on God. Others make their decisions for whatever reasons, and must deal with them as you deal with yours.

Focus on finding and getting closer to people who have their act together. Focus on building your spiritual relationship. Sure, it’s harder than it used to be. What are you going to do about it? 😂

Work on yourself. Now is definitely the time. You love encouraging others, but you need to have a lot stronger of a foundation if you really do care. Find others to help encourage you.

King Lemuel was said to have learned he needed to be there for others on God’s terms – not his own. All you want is to encourage people; you’re not trying to “save” anyone. But you need to learn to let God guilds you – not rely on your own intuition.

If you want a Proverbs 31 woman, you have to be a Proverbs 31 man. Stop wanting. Start becoming. And then what happens will be better… no matter what. 🙂