Regression

Well you’re just going to have to admit it; you’re on a backslide. Weight is back where you started. Good news is a lot of it is a muscle that you have built up, and it’ll be easy to get back into the groove, but it’s still so frustrating.

You’ve always been able to get a good thing going for a few months and then backsliding when it comes to your health. No one else is here to help, so it’s on you like it always is.

A lot of concerns at work have been addressed and you’re continuing to make headway there. Set up with supposedly amazing health insurance now.

You keep missing church. When so many of your problems seem to stem from just not being energized in your faith right now, that’s just got to stop. You’re not worried or anything it’s just… not exciting. Bible study tomorrow night. That’s different because it’s… don’t know, just different.

You keep fighting the urge to assume there’s one silver bullet it was home all your problems. Because even though that’s sort of true (re: getting your faith re-energized) you’re still gonna need to put effort into the other stuff also.

Not really sure how close you want to get to V. You had a great time with her at Con, but probably need to keep everything mentally in the friend sphere. Enough of those kinds of relationships. You need a woman with a desire to be close to God; goodness knows you need the help. It’s your fault for being so picky. Better than the alternative and crashing again though. Find someone freaking local too, geez…

Could always be worse. For whatever reason your passion for God is in the doldrums, figure it out. If there’s one thing you know it’s that you belong with someone that wants to share your journey.

Bible study tomorrow night. Get back in the stupid gym Wednesday. No excuses. Same plan as before.

You’ll be all right in time.🙂