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Boss dissolving everything, divvying up company and starting fresh. Other guy got what was once going to be the next million dollar company. Good move. Lots of experience and plenty of drive. Doubtful anything can be scavenged, but you’ll benefit from extra work if it can be.

As for you, you get the store. Made sense; you’re the one that always pushed for it. Only question is whether or not you can transfer the whole thing or if you have to start over again. Reenter everything. Either way the whole thing’s in your garage now. It’s gonna take a lot of effort just to configure it to get the car in if you had to in an emergency now. Sucks. Miss being able to park inside. Back room is an office just like you always thought about making it.

It’s partly terrifying. Just what you need while dealing with depression; more time spent in the house. You’re going to find out how much you miss the drive to work. Based on your tendencies, your sleep schedule is gonna get all screwed up too unless you really focus.

It doesn’t feel like Christmas. Because Christmas will not feel like Christmas for a long time. What you would give to be living in December 2021 for the rest of your life. Just that feeling. Finally. Of sharing it with someone that could one day be part of a family of your own. You’ve gotten past likely never playing Santa for your kids. You don’t even want to watch Clark Griswold. His dad passing the night before Christmas storyteller torch. Always wanted that. Will never have it.

If you weren’t just a really positive person, you’d really be screwed up right now. But Christ’s joy is inside and that’s what matters. Unsuccessful $2k vet bill, notwithstanding. Came along right at a time when you got a $1500 bonus, so, His timing is simply a reminder.

Bottom line now as you are a business owner. Full-on with a bank account with $25 in it to start with. Lots of free inventory and supplies though. Who knows what might happen with what’s left of the crypto company. It wasn’t the crypto market that crashed the customer; it was the economy and OpEx. Not much you can do about that. People will just never learn, no matter how long they vote Democrat. It’s the economy, stupid.

Enough. You’re getting this out. All kinds of frustrations that you’ll be past soon enough. It’s an amazing exercising dealing with frustration… metaphorically writing letters (or drafts) and not sending them. Purges the anger, evening out your thoughts, so you can reevaluate whether or not you need to be so frustrated to begin with.

Probably doesn’t help everyone . Helps you though.

Even though everything went down in flames, everyone else is really excited about the directions things are going at work. Entrepreneurs. Seeing opportunity when everything falls apart. It’s gonna take you a while to adjust to that, but here you are actually not freaking out like you used to when faced with potentially not having a job.

Your basic needs are met with the store. There’s no real reason to rake in profit; profit will be the time that you can spend doing other things to get revenue in from other streams.

Such a different way of looking at things. If you can put together a plan and raise a little capital, you might be able to do the nonprofit food desert thing. Sky is the limit.

Even now.

God really is trying to help you take your mind off last year, seems like. 26 days since Bill went home. God’s probably already sent him to someone else who needs him though. It’s not like you’re not gonna see him again.

Lived by yourself for almost 20 years, but you’ve never felt as alone as you are now. Ted notices the sniffling and meows. Your own cat, making a fool of you, lolz…

Wouldn’t be the first time. Still breaking out crying every once in a while like a schoolgirl. His little box is coming home tomorrow. And just like that you can’t speak without choking up. 😭

It’ll be alright. He was there when you needed him. You’re beginning the next chapter. So much to be grateful for.