Half Full

You loved it. Her passion was just the beginning. Simple fact is you felt whole with her. Being part of her. Looking up at her powerfully making love to you. In bed. On the couch. By a roaring fire like you’re beside now. It felt… sacred with her. It wasn’t sex. It was so much more. Spiritual was just the beginning. How she enthralled you so effortlessly. Claimed pleasure from you so majestically while teaching you the meaning of fulfillment.

Every single time it was like every ounce of pain you had ever known was meaningless when she looked into your eyes moaning your name.

So powerful. Elegant. You could not believe you had found her. A lifetime of waiting for she who entranced your body, mind, and soul.

You never got used to her taking you inside her completely, as if you were a couple desperate to have a child together. It was like you couldn’t believe it was happening. Every. Single. Night. Day. Whenever. Because you had found the only woman.

Did she ever realize what that meant to you? What you were risking in the back of your mind? Either you were full of it all these years, or you were willing – knowing the risk she explicitly explained to you – to face the same specter of the literal greatest fear that injured you so long ago.

For her. Because she was her. Even now your body pines for hers, along with your mind and soul. Probably always will.

Until the day you die, you will know you were meant for her. You felt sure before you experienced bliss of being with her. After? No choice in the matter.

You wanted her to be your Guinevere, but she chose to be your Blanche Fleur. The only positive way to see that on a ‘chilly by southern standards night’ is that the pressure is off.

Whoever you find in the future will sing to you in some way you can’t imagine now. Life has already thrown you a curve ball or two since then. Maybe you’ve learned something; maybe not. Time will tell.

Yeah, sure it would be great if you could forget how happy you were. But when you really think about it in the grand scheme, why on earth would you want to?

As positive as you are, there is no reason to forget the happiness you had. The completeness of becoming one with someone who was literally your other half.

Who knows… maybe you’re wrong., and the best is yet to come. But if you aren’t? You got to experience true completeness on a level very few will ever know in this life.

The glass is half full… and always will be.

Thank God for the Joy your heart has. No matter what… It couldn’t come from anywhere else.🕊