47

12:30pm-ish… 47 years ago… you started whining. 😂

These days, that means you’re gonna be doing some work today.

That was funny. His sense of humor.

One of the more low points of your life. 2009. Really sucks if you have a phobia of unemployment. Working on retainer bases for the folks just so you can afford rent… saw the opportunity to return to the Holy City, which was the goal. Always have to start small after you learn bitter lessons in curing arrogance.

In your case, it was turning 30 and living under your parents roof, despite being a hotshot that got a degree and you didn’t know enough about money to realize you don’t put rent on the credit card, and no, no one cares who you are, So don’t hold out for a gig thinking you’re better than starting out of the bottom for.

Considering you started at 17 as a janitor, at a fun park And made sure you were the best darn janitor they had, one would’ve thought you’d have learned that lesson. It’s OK though, you eventually did. 🙂

Working on retainer for the folks’ galleries and selling possessions for rent… squeaking by month-to-month and learning that turkey dogs in Burrito wraps were perfect “scraping by” food. That was almost a year. Almost a year of just squeaking by. Because you couldn’t find work. Because 2009.

A friend of a friend needed 400 bucks a month to split an apartment with and you got to know him pretty well. Couldn’t afford much outside rent and food. Sent applications everywhere and not even Target would hire you.

At one point, for some bizarre reason you ran across Holiday cards. Don’t even remember what holiday it was for. Maybe someone’s birthday. Don’t even remember when it was.

There was a card you actually spent the money to buy for yourself. Can’t even remember what it said exactly. Can’t find it anymore. Mold might’ve gotten it. Doesn’t matter.

Said something along the lines of “If God didn’t want you to reach for your dreams and never let go, why did He give you fingernails?” Some kind of funny picture went along with it. Bought it and put it on your shelf as inspiration.

Months passed. Apparently inspiration wasn’t much of a help. Can’t even remember how you found how that one job was hiring, But in mid March, you had an interview that actually went well, and they told you they wanted you to start in a week, on March 30. Yeah, you weren’t gonna ask for the day off for your birthday.😂

Best birthday present you ever got. Woke up super early that Monday and went to that inspirational card. Funny, you had never actually opened it. Yeah. It was a birthday card. Who on earth makes inspirational birthday cards?

Well… Him. 😂 Laughed through tears and headed to work.

15 years ago. One of those many, many, many moments He seems to enjoy pranking you in the most wonderful ways. Thank goodness He has a sense of humor, or you would be screwed.😂

You really needed that year. That whole time. Arrogant bastard. Oh, sure, people deserve far worse, but you needed something to bring you down to earth. And you got it – and now looking back at it you’re thankful for it. Because you know that it was part of His plan for you. And He was with you the whole time, whether you realized it or not.

Just a stupid card. Maybe a total coincidence. Yeah, you can say that, but coincidences… they’re different. And you know it.

Three. Count them. Three random occurrences of “Isaiah” today. Tapping you on the shoulder. Now’s a good time.

Actually chilly tonight by holy city standards, but no firewood at Food Lion. An extra TV in front of the fireplace for tonight then.

So much energy filling you lately. Springtime. Getting things done that just need to get done. Finally even opened up the dating apps for some reason. Talk about optimism.

Such feelings of love. Happiness. Not magnanimity… that would be a byproduct of arrogance.

Just… you want joy for other people, especially those seemingly angry at you. Ire. Flame. Crow. Your best friend that seems to hate your faith that you’re gonna have to deal with, especially since all the work that you’ve had to do is now finally taken care of. Wokeness is cancer.😒

Getting in better physical shape each day. Lots of walking. Weights. Too bad gym is closed on the weekends. Do something every day. Keep eating well.

It’s springtime. A new year; the 47th one. And there’s a lot of people out there that never saw their 47th. So be grateful to Him for every day you have of yours.

Isaiah. When Ted will let you read.😂

Tomorrow are you gonna get caught up on the daily delivery log, Working on the bank reconciliation, list some books, and have a good day at work.

Goodbye 46. And thank you.🙏