Good Reasons

Well, this round of Sick has taken long enough. Just lingering and lingering at 95%, really not wanting to start exercising again and getting back into the group just because you’re not sure it’s fully gone.

After that disastrous sinus condition, you had 15 years ago, you just wanna get rid of it. Just sinus pressure and runny nose left. The first week was a misdiagnosis so it hasn’t actually been as long as it seems.

Still, you’ve been home for a month and haven’t really done anything productive after kicking ass for three weeks, and that’s just infuriating.

Could always be worse though.

Never thought you would hear from Flame again, but she’s definitely in the ‘worse’ category. Terrible medical problems before even getting two flavors of cancer. On top of it all, she finally got separated. Truth be told you never thought that would happen.

You’re always going to be doggedly encouraging, and being there for a friend who is fighting through cancer is something you absolutely would do no matter what, but you had to let her know you would have nothing to do with anything else. Nothing wrong with contact, but… yeah. 

It’s easier for her to not think about the future for a now because she thinks she’s gonna die, and considering all the medical problems she seems to have had a couple years ago, including another two months comatose in the hospital with sepsis… sigh.

Growing old is more appealing than the alternative. But wow, you have so much to be grateful for regarding your health. 

There’s not much to be worried about other than possibly hurting her feelings, but truth be told… wow… you just don’t really wanna screw around with having to get to know someone new these days.

That means something, so you definitely need to work on yourself for a while. 

Gonna read 1 Peter tonight. You like him more than you like Paul. Peter was supposedly the ‘bull in the china shop’ kinda guy. A lot of mustard. And there’s something you can really identify with him about – denying Christ. It sounds terrifying. Like if you were being tortured, would you deny Christ? Would you be that weak? How strong is your faith? 

Peter was a total guard dog, cutting off an ear to protect Jesus. That’s something you could see yourself doing. But then that same bulldog denied Christ three times. Wasn’t even tortured (then) to do it.

Asked forgiveness when Jesus got out of the tomb and received it. And then like all but one of the disciples went on to die a horrific death preaching the Gospel. But that time, he didn’t fold.

Learning of the gruesome fates of the disciples is when so many questions in your mind met their end. Not one recanted. There’s just no way to square that. 

Jesus existed. Preached. Has disciples who were around for many, many years after His time on earth. All but one died excruciating deaths wow trying to spread the gospel. Not one of them recanted.

These are facts, born out by historic record. Jesus could be nothing but either The Savior or a con artist. And no con artist would’ve been good enough to go 11 for 11 on martyrs decades later.

1 Peter will be something short while you’re waiting for what He wants you to read next. Knowing your luck, it’ll be get another Paul book.🙄

Might try a light gym day tomorrow just to get back in action. You’ve been idle long enough. And if you get yourself sick again because you hadn’t finished fighting it off…?

Being sick and tired of being sick and tired of us a good reason.😂