Why do you feel selfish

You’re happy. Finally over being sick for a week. Spending a lot of time with the woman you love. Things are going well.

Spent time with your aunt and cousins in the hospital tonight as your uncle took his last breaths.

He’d suffered for years. They knew this was the time. You and she were there for them. Mom & Dad were there earlier and will be tomorrow.

It almost feels selfish. Going back to normal knowing others won’t tonight.

You get along really well with them, but you weren’t incredibly close.

My goodness, your thoughts are on age so much these days. It’s not just ‘not the 90s anymore”… it’s not even close.

Can’t even get Dad to go to a Clemson game. Probably for the best since they’re losing a lot more now.

You are reading Proverbs with her.

It’s after 1 AM but now is a good time for Proverbs 13.

It’s in these moments that you wonder why you hurt. Ted has a little while longer. And one day, you’re all gonna meet up at Home.

It’s just the flaws of being human. We feel lost so deeply. We feel each other’s pain. One day you will be inconsolable and someone else will get to feel a little selfish like you feel now.

Selfish isn’t really the right word, but you don’t feel like thinking too much.

By tomorrow, you’re going to be happy again. You’re happy now you just need to get this out of your system. Lots of things lingering on your mind.

But thank God being away from the Source of Divine Joy ain’t one of them.🙏