Moving forward

Moving forward is rough sometimes. There’s so many things in transition. Things going well with Flame, but the road is long. Going slow. Trying to put God first.

Severing ties with some in your past was needed. Just basic respect for who you love now. There will always be prayer – until the day you die – but every Sunday is fine. No need for open channels. They don’t bring you much joy anymore, and don’t need to hurt you or her either anymore.

There’s no way to have said goodbye. You tried. It just sounded angry, and you’re not angry. Quite the opposite. But nothing could be said that hasn’t been said before. Just so miss the good times, and pray for her to find Home. It always meant so much to you. Always will.

Whatever the weirdness is going on with the main gig is wearing thin. Guaranteed work starting around late October was supposed to be the plan. Still waiting. Now you’ve had to crank the store back up. Annoying that money’s tight, but that’s what happens when everything dries up at once.

Gym workout schedule needs stability all the same too. It’s impossible to plan when everything is out on a limb.

Yet another period of time where stability evades you, but lots of amazing things are on the horizon.

Thinking about breaking down and just finding something here. And just like that, anger at that entire world starts flowing.

You just need more going on with the main gig. Keeping the store cranking short term. God willing, next year is gonna be a lot better, one way or another.

Just keep pushing through. Focus on God. Still not time for a rally. But it’s coming up… very soon.

Proverbs was wonderful. Hopefully Acts will keep the journey going.