Haven’t spent as much time with the Holy Spirit as you’ve needed to lately. You’ve been doing well. Can feel it. Source of your joy. Of anything positive in your life.

Side note:

You’re too old to be young. Accept it.

You’re missing a lot of days you actually weren’t happy during.

Stop it. Or deal with it. Or better yet, give it to God. Let Him deal with it.

It’s not good for you.

Celebrate what is.

You get to keep her a while longer.

Honestly, weren’t expecting that.

But goodness you are so grateful you get to keep her for a while longer. Whatever is inflaming those mammary glands isn’t getting worse. She requires medication twice a day, but it’s worth it. Every time there’s a medical issue with so many in your life you brace for impact. Could always be worse. One day it will be.

Lots of other changes going on right now. Lots of times in the doldrums. Being sick does not help. Not having much work doesn’t help either. Store algorithm doesn’t like you going to Texas. It takes a while to get it humming again. A lot of extra costs have eaten away at the savings. That’s what it’s for, but it’s still annoying. Kind of grouchy about everything but up to six weeks of work in Texas is around the corner so you just gotta hold on.

Flame is back home. Spent a lot of time with her and you miss her already. Watching to see how she handles things. Always observing. FaceTiming Bible studies now that she is back at her new place.

She got a chance to meet virtually all your friends and family and church and so far everyone is positive. Taking things slow and hoping it works out. 

Trying to understand women more by research, but it’s difficult because you want to steer clear of the Manosphere and all that stupidity. 

Glad autumn is back. It’s not cold outside or anything, but it’s perfect just like spring, only God paints with different colors.

These are definitely the doldrums. Things will pick up soon. A few other small jobs are on the horizon that can fund the stores resurgence if it takes more than a week or two to get started on Texas.

So much to be grateful for. Especially not being used to the doldrums anymore. 😂

So young…

Even the comments agree…

You’re happy. Finally over being sick for a week. Spending a lot of time with the woman you love. Things are going well.

Spent time with your aunt and cousins in the hospital tonight as your uncle took his last breaths.

He’d suffered for years. They knew this was the time. You and she were there for them. Mom & Dad were there earlier and will be tomorrow.

It almost feels selfish. Going back to normal knowing others won’t tonight.

You get along really well with them, but you weren’t incredibly close.

My goodness, your thoughts are on age so much these days. It’s not just ‘not the 90s anymore”… it’s not even close.

Can’t even get Dad to go to a Clemson game. Probably for the best since they’re losing a lot more now.

You are reading Proverbs with her.

It’s after 1 AM but now is a good time for Proverbs 13.

It’s in these moments that you wonder why you hurt. Ted has a little while longer. And one day, you’re all gonna meet up at Home.

It’s just the flaws of being human. We feel lost so deeply. We feel each other’s pain. One day you will be inconsolable and someone else will get to feel a little selfish like you feel now.

Selfish isn’t really the right word, but you don’t feel like thinking too much.

By tomorrow, you’re going to be happy again. You’re happy now you just need to get this out of your system. Lots of things lingering on your mind.

But thank God being away from the Source of Divine Joy ain’t one of them.🙏

Always funny when this earworm pops up. 😂

Always fun.

Even when someone’s going out of business…

Wonder if it’s possible to write this off as a work expense…. 🤔

Nah. Just have fun. 😂

Here and now. Good times on the horizon. Plenty of money in the bank. Dad passing his stress test and having both of them around for a while longer. Ted’s clock is ticking, but she still has plenty of energy so… not time yet. Someone is looking forward to going to Con with you. Been reading the Book of Proverbs with her. Been getting a lot closer to God too. Finally warm again.

Always funny how Con breaks the year apart for you into before and after. Just a magical time to relive days past with friends and loved ones present.

So happy now. Right now. The future will bring even better times, and far worse times.

But right now you are so happy. Always be grateful to God for everything you have, everything you are, all those you cherish, and every smile you make. For as long as you’re here yourself.

After? God willing… M83 will be nothing compared to that Music. 🕊️

You don’t hate cancer enough.

No snakes so far. Although they really have nothing to hear from you, lolz…

Hopefully a relaxing weekend inbound.

13 gigs in now. Might need to get some duct tape for the work boots lolz.

Yeah, breaking in a new pair on a site would probably hurt so if you’re gonna get some new ones might wanna get them soon.

Been waiting all week for trying the local bee farm mead.

Blessings abound. Be grateful for every last one.

Texas apparently is a native word for friends. Looks like someone’s been pigging out on these West Texas bugs.

Grateful to be back out. Feel so much younger when you’re on a deployment.

Who would’ve ever thought a normal sleep cycle would make so much of a difference lolz