Since he was by your side.

Hasn’t even been a year. Think you know why. If so, at least Someone can get through to your subconscious.

Met friendly staff while booking. Looked a little like Mike from high school.

Miss Bill. So grateful for Ted.

She needs a young friend.

Yeah, you really are. Everyone is when it comes to most medical issues, but no, make sure you’re talking about you.😂

Admitting it is therapeutic. Soon as you feel like complaining, just remember and it gives you more strength.

Day four of the liquid diet. System got torn up switching around eating different kinds of food so fast and switching to bananas to try to eat healthier. That’s the theory at least.

Reached the age where you’re starting to not care about tiptoeing around awkward medical issues because everyone has them and you don’t have to act like you don’t anymore. The only take away from that is you’re getting older. Yay.

College football Saturday with Jell-O. Lol oh you poor thing…. 😂

You’ll be fine. Could always be worse.

Home. Con was great. Hospital after you go back was not. Hooray for digestive problems. Feels weird that the folks are still the ones taking care of you medically. Freaked out and called an ambulance. No idea what even caused it. Bland foods and fiber for a while. Yay. Small piece of good news is you found out that old issue with the navel is easily correctable, so that’s something that can be put on the calendar.

Spent way too much money at Con, but it was a great time. Not nearly as much as last year, but it was good to go with someone for once. That’s probably not going anywhere but it’s okay. She still had a great time and so did you.

She didn’t have a sip of alcohol the whole time. Steered clear. Lots to like. Views a little out there for you, but someone that shares your journey with the Holy Spirit is just a must. Still hope she goes next year. And has more money. 😂

Working on certifications for freelancing work. Boring and tedious. Beats having a job in something you love so much it ruins it, but be honest that’s just something you’re telling yourself to make it easier. 😂

Definitely feel like the last few months have culminated. It’s weird how that time is almost subdividing itself. Era X is the process of doing various things waiting for event Y.

Opportunity potentially arising to get Ted a very young friend. Not sure if you’re ready. Lots going on, but based on the way life seems to work, this might be the time.

Folks are moving soon. Almost annoying how glad they were to help take care of you at the hospital. Made them feel young again.

So what’s up next? No idea. Resting this weekend eating bland food. Not exactly the most invigorating set up. There was a video game coming out for years that you were excited to play, but had woke crap in it. That’ll save you a lot of time and some money. So glad you’re not neck deep in that hobby like you used to be.

Based on the way, everything seems to be pointing, it’s probably just good that you wrap up 1 Corinthians. You’ve put that off long enough.

It’s a new season. Started off both really well and really badly. Who knows what else it has in store…

YOU HAVE NO WIFE.

NO KIDS.

NO OTHER CAUSE.

NO REASON NOT TO CON YOUR FUCKING BRAINS OUT FOR EVERY LAST MOMENT AND ADMIRE THE METICULOUS ATTENTION TO DETAIL REGARDING SPELLING AND GRAMMAR.

Could you have done better?

Yes.

But not tonight.

Now be the fucking dad you always could have been and make sure the last of the drunken assholes get back to their rooms safe.

Lolz.

Could always be worse. 😂

Fuck you.

You owe Him more.

I love you, Lord.

I thank You for so many blessings.

For the best family anyone could ask for.

For the most amazing friends one could ever know.

For the place and time You have placed me.

For the opportunities You have given me.

I literally walk through hundreds of those across Con dance floor goers, raves, bars, and the like – so many who couldn’t care less about You… some who likely have contempt for You, and it is my honor to pray for them.

Tired of this. So tired. I want to be asleep with my wife at 10. My children sleeping comfortably and n the next rooms over.

The life I don’t have…. for reasons that couldn’t matter less. I’m here. Now. And I want to pray for the well being of those here tonight. All of them. Every last one.

Whether by Your will or my failings, here I am. Either way, blessed with the opportunity to pray for those who need You.

Thank You for the opportunities you have given me. Please forgive my sins. Please hold Z and his wife in Your arms. Fill them with Your love. Heal their marriage. Bless it, as I’d ask you to bless mine.

Here, where there is so much rebellion against You, I ask the most intercession.

Lol maybe it’s all the alcohol. It’s definitely shaped my thoughts here…

I hate that alcohol brings me closer to You. That means sobriety carries inhibitions I have towards You. That’s ridiculous. Please help me resolve that absurdity.

I ask only one thing for myself tonight.

Please let my finest hour in this world to be in my future, and not my past… and that it serves Your will.

In Your name… Amen.

Forgive me, Lord. Have to ask tho –

Are you funking kidding me?

What a Con! 👊😂

Oh no!

Well…. guess it’s not for everyone… 😂

Warming Up 😂

There is some humor you simply could never explain. A lot of it even seems out of character for you. But surprise surprise, you’re actually not a stereotype.

Does Con mean it’s the time of year for The Magnetic Fields? Eh, maybe not anymore. Last year was last year, and ended up being the best Con to date.

Sometimes the Magnetic Fields are whimsical and crazy, and others somber, bearing pain, and putting right into the soul with lyrics edging the border of crude, and sometimes crossing it.

And then there’s stuff like this. Something only you’re going to get the humor to.😂

This Con’s gonna be great.

The lyrics are so messed up… but the sound is so amazing… but the lyrics… messed up but hysterical… 😂

BUT THAT SOUND!!!

Whatever. Another extra grand from your own hard work coming down the pipe. Bringing someone new that might go somewhere. Might not. Who knows?

You know what?

Ask Him to cover you.

It’s just a good idea. 🤔

This life is meaningless compared to the one to come. So laugh at the messed up lyrics. At all the cray at Con. Cut loose and have a blast.😃

And always be grateful.

For so many things.

Like being able to laugh at the song. 😂

Hurry up and wait.

Hurry up and wait.

Hurry up and wait.

Seems so busy… and then not.

Texas never did happen again, but world class people you work with saw to it to give you a great bonus anyway for past help and loyalty.

So grateful to work with good people.

Will be working with more, hopefully soon when chaos dies down enough to have you look at doing some bookkeeping for them.

Other than that same holding pattern. Dad’s surgery is done. And mom are getting to be in worse shape overall, but hopefully will be better off for a little while when all of these latest medical issues calm down.

Slowly establishing your own route for booking. Had a spare hour today and found 37. Picked up groceries for Con. Possible date this weekend.

Definitely need to clean up the house. Just have books everywhere. Organization is definitely needed.😂 and get the guest bedroom cleaned up from cat sitting Sam while the folks were in the hospital.

Bill hasn’t even been gone a whole year, and it is amazing how quickly Ted has become fiercely territorial at anything else with four legs, lolz. Wow… poor Sam. Almost twice her size, but she absolutely terrorized him. 😂

Rediscovered how amazing bananas are for snacks. Feeling better with more energy in general. Gym is definitely helping with that, but you really need to establish more consistency.

That goes double for the Bible and church. Still hovering in 1 Corinthians with Paul and his annoying opinions. Just glad it says they are his opinions and not necessarily God’s.😂

Three more days before the first kickoff of college football season. Notre Dame and Navy playing in Ireland. Maybe next year they’ll play on the deck of an aircraft carrier.

Just more hurrying up and waiting. They say patience is a virtue.

Meh.

Could always be worse though. 😊