But goodness you are so grateful you get to keep her for a while longer. Whatever is inflaming those mammary glands isn’t getting worse. She requires medication twice a day, but it’s worth it. Every time there’s a medical issue with so many in your life you brace for impact. Could always be worse. One day it will be.
Lots of other changes going on right now. Lots of times in the doldrums. Being sick does not help. Not having much work doesn’t help either. Store algorithm doesn’t like you going to Texas. It takes a while to get it humming again. A lot of extra costs have eaten away at the savings. That’s what it’s for, but it’s still annoying. Kind of grouchy about everything but up to six weeks of work in Texas is around the corner so you just gotta hold on.
Flame is back home. Spent a lot of time with her and you miss her already. Watching to see how she handles things. Always observing. FaceTiming Bible studies now that she is back at her new place.
She got a chance to meet virtually all your friends and family and church and so far everyone is positive. Taking things slow and hoping it works out.
Trying to understand women more by research, but it’s difficult because you want to steer clear of the Manosphere and all that stupidity.
Glad autumn is back. It’s not cold outside or anything, but it’s perfect just like spring, only God paints with different colors.
These are definitely the doldrums. Things will pick up soon. A few other small jobs are on the horizon that can fund the stores resurgence if it takes more than a week or two to get started on Texas.
So much to be grateful for. Especially not being used to the doldrums anymore. 😂
You’re happy. Finally over being sick for a week. Spending a lot of time with the woman you love. Things are going well.
Spent time with your aunt and cousins in the hospital tonight as your uncle took his last breaths.
He’d suffered for years. They knew this was the time. You and she were there for them. Mom & Dad were there earlier and will be tomorrow.
It almost feels selfish. Going back to normal knowing others won’t tonight.
You get along really well with them, but you weren’t incredibly close.
My goodness, your thoughts are on age so much these days. It’s not just ‘not the 90s anymore”… it’s not even close.
Can’t even get Dad to go to a Clemson game. Probably for the best since they’re losing a lot more now.
You are reading Proverbs with her.
It’s after 1 AM but now is a good time for Proverbs 13.
It’s in these moments that you wonder why you hurt. Ted has a little while longer. And one day, you’re all gonna meet up at Home.
It’s just the flaws of being human. We feel lost so deeply. We feel each other’s pain. One day you will be inconsolable and someone else will get to feel a little selfish like you feel now.
Selfish isn’t really the right word, but you don’t feel like thinking too much.
By tomorrow, you’re going to be happy again. You’re happy now you just need to get this out of your system. Lots of things lingering on your mind.
But thank God being away from the Source of Divine Joy ain’t one of them.🙏
I’m the king of my own land. Facing tempests of dust, I’ll fight until the end. Creatures of my dreams raise up and dance with me! Now and forever, I’m your king!
Here and now. Good times on the horizon. Plenty of money in the bank. Dad passing his stress test and having both of them around for a while longer. Ted’s clock is ticking, but she still has plenty of energy so… not time yet. Someone is looking forward to going to Con with you. Been reading the Book of Proverbs with her. Been getting a lot closer to God too. Finally warm again.
Always funny how Con breaks the year apart for you into before and after. Just a magical time to relive days past with friends and loved ones present.
So happy now. Right now. The future will bring even better times, and far worse times.
But right now you are so happy. Always be grateful to God for everything you have, everything you are, all those you cherish, and every smile you make. For as long as you’re here yourself.
After? God willing… M83 will be nothing compared to that Music. 🕊️
For probably about 30 years … everytime you see an ambulance driving around…Dear Lord…
Please be with the one or ones who need that ambulance.
Please give them the strength you have given me so many times.
Please let their sins be forgiven.
And please forgive me of mine.
In Jesus’s name, Amen.
Yeah, you’re driving around a lot more than you used to, but still for some bizarre reason you’re seeing an awful lot more ambulances these days. Maybe it’s the season maybe it’s coincidence. Maybe it’s your imagination.
Said the same prayer for years every time you saw one. Then recently you thought about the forgiveness for sins.
You always said “please forgive them of their sins, and please forgive me of mine.”
Honestly, the rhythm was good. But yeah, eventually you realized that’s not something you can ask for, and for good reason.
Nothing wrong with asking for softening of hearts, though. Or whatever process it might unfold for the person to have their sins forgiven if they haven’t asked…
Whatever. However. God wants to run it. Just please let it happen somehow take a lot of the pressure off, not having to worry about the specifics sometimes. Makes it a lot easier to pray for people in ambulances too.
You don’t really think about it that often; mainly whenever you’re driving around and see an ambulance. Guess that’s why you never think about sitting down to write out a more rhythmic prayer.
That’s one of those where it makes a lot of sense to have the same prayer. You have no idea what’s going on in the ambulance. It could be a hypochondriac, or someone who will die before they get to the hospital, or anywhere in between.
It still counts as prayer if you don’t close your eyes lolz…. You’re driving and if you get an accident, the closest ambulance is already full.
Random thoughts from the road spoken to text. Maybe well probably with errors. You catch a few of them when you’re at a stoplight and can actually look. Could always be worse though.
Been storming for weeks now to the point where the novelty has worn off and it’s getting annoying. The old urban legend has that you never take a shower during a thunderstorm. So you looked it up and while if that’s not actually good advice, pipes are metal and a decent number of people die every year from getting struck by lightning while showering in their own bathroom
Really annoying where you have to be somewhere at 8 AM. Tomorrow’s gonna be annoying, but hopefully not for being electrocuted.
Driving a truck for work and dinging a car this morning enough to damage the brake light. You’re you so of course you wrote a note with your number on it so the guy could contact you and you could cover the damage. Or you could make it a huge headache for the company and jack up their insurance. You’d rather just pay a couple hundred bucks. It’s too easy to volunteer other people’s money when you screw up.
Guy seemed really cool about it. Several other small things happened here and there throughout the day that turned a horrible warning into “ you know what? Today actually wasn’t a bad day.”
Holy Spirit does stuff like that every once in a while. I mean nothing was catastrophic, but tiny little good things just kind of outweighed multiple instances of negativity and frustration.
Blessings of the Holy Spirit. Can’t even imagine what kind of person you would be without it in your heart. Bit of an anger complex and chronic depression, but almost no one would ever know.
You’ll be in one again yourself eventually. And someone will pray for you. So go enjoy the day. 🙂
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