Shoes

Said he wouldn’t need them anymore.

You have almost the same size. A few pairs of loafers would cause problems for your wide duck feet with narrow heels, so Goodwill gets them.

They are moving. Smaller house. They don’t want to leave but they have to. Can’t keep up the house they built. They are going over all the details you didn’t want to know. What they’ve worked lifetimes for. How it all works. They even asked if there was anything that surprised you. Of course the answer was no. It’s not like you really cared. You’d rather have them one day.

Been a rough week. The kind of week where all the bills have been paid, there is cheap food in the fridge, and money from work is inbound, but won’t be in for 4 business days.

They asked if you needed some. Hell no. By Friday you’d be set from both companies and you’d be fine. Had to remind them that not being able to order a pizza for a few days isn’t a problem. You don’t deserve them.

Millions all over the west are going through it. February doldrums. Could always be worse.

It’s not just them. Economics of different generations. Boomers had it all. Led them to have unrealistic expectations because they were such an aberration growing up in the postwar economy.

One good steady job could afford a household, mortgage on a house, car, raise a few kids, picket fence, whole 9 yards. Now? Yeah.

Future on mudball is bleak. First person got neuralink a few days ago. AI is poised to replace the job of everyone who stares at a computer screen for a living. Printed money floods the country that was already drowning and $34 trillion of debt.

Considering the first $6 trillion was from 1776 to 2000 and we’ve had $28 trillion since…

The word Unsustainability could never do it justice. And these issues sure aren’t just American ones.

What you would give to have had children of your own to worry about. Who knows, maybe that’s the reason you don’t have them.

Feel better? lol, A for effort…

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Like a few days? Whatevs.

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Now THAT’S funny. 😂

The Holy Spirit is in your heart.

You’re down. Worried. About mudball crib. Everyone in it. Your own life in the next 20-30 years and how it will go, if He has reason to keep you around as long as you pray he keeps Ted…

YouTube auto play goes to a retrospective video about the only Bond movie you really got into. End of it had brave music. Vid creator had the freaking decency to list the music used… and…. BOOM.

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Might as well have screamed Matthew 6:34 into your ear.

Ask forgiveness for your worries. They mean you fear more than you trust.

It’s okay. Normal.

God. Can. Come. To. Bat. For…… ANYONE.

Call ANYONE.

And bless those who heed His call. Bless them. Hold them. Protect them. Reassure them.

Someone has chosen to answer You, Lord. Please give me the words. She asked. I did my best. She and her current and future family need You. She reached out to me and I’m scared. Afraid of letting You down. I’d literally written her off at one point. Then took a shot in encouraging her a few years later. Thought she never even had a chance; came to that false conclusion at Dragoncon 2019.

You made me into an idiot, and it’s been YEARS since I’ve been so happy to be one!

It’s not like I can “fail” her or the Texan she chose. YOU reach out to us. And we decide what to do then.

Hold. Fast. And bless both of them.

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Wait… so you aren’t still kinda bothered by Dad’s shoes?

Ya know what? Nah.

Matthew 6:34.

In 500 years, what will it matter?

You’ll be in Heaven. With those you’re watching age before your eyes now. Mom. Dad. Even Ted. And will follow them there in a blink of an eye in the grand scheme.

So what… celebrate?

Lolz…. Not yet. The rest of your time in the crib will one day have been all in the blink of an eye… but while you’re here, you have a purpose to serve.

His.

So screw the broken CPAP mask, get a new one so you can sleep, rock the auditing, hit the booking, BE IN CHURCH, MAKE DAT MONAAY so you can support His causes. You have more to do than just coast.

If there were past lives, you guarded the wall at night while everyone else slept. It’s second nature to you.

Now you watch that night wall with some really nice shoes from a truly good man who has never understood you… but respects you… because no matter what you do in life… you grabbed the Holy Spirit and refused to let go.

A boss at a company you once worked at yelled at everyone in a meeting because someone left a door open and someone else could have stolen lots of his stuff from the warehouse. He was as royally pissed.

It was you. You hadn’t been there long, and the door was always open so the techs could get their inventory out – so you opened it and went inside.

After the meeting, you went to his office. The awesome Ukrainian who handled the copier building tried to stop you. Knew how pissed he was and he might just fire you,

“Sorry sir. It was me. The door was always open in the morning, so I opened it on the way in. Just wanted to make sure you knew what happened, and the mistake won’t be made again.”

The boss didn’t give a shit. Dismissed you after throwing veiled threats of firing you if you did it again. What a Jackass.

But whatever. It’s not like you weren’t going to make sure he knew what had happened, why, and it wouldn’t happen again.

Because you HOLD FAST.

Jerk later fired you for making too many mistakes thanks to your stupidity in being mad at the CPAP machine that you didn’t use it and brain fog messed you up enough that it was causing problems.

But even in that meeting… he went out of his way to say it wasn’t personal. Like… why would it be? Jerk had to let you go as an employee… but you could tell he had a semblance of respect for you as a person.

Considering your blood pressure went down 20 points after that, given your paranoia of unemployment? Yeah, he was a jackass and you were in a bad fit…

But… that jackass had a level of respect for you. Why? Because you chose to be true.

Again! WHY?

Because you HOLD. FAST.

AGAIN! WHY? Because He wants you to.

There are so many things you could never understand.

Good news? You don’t need to.😂

That old boss? He was an asshole. Selfish, arrogant prick.

You hope he and his wife’s company is still doing well.

Why? Because screw him and his wife and their company. NONE of them will take away from the grace you have in your heart.

And considering just how much they cost you by fighting to deny you unemployment benefits?

In a year when you needed medical treatment?!? 2020 FFS?!?

Matthew 16:23 (“mildly” paraphrased):

Fuck off, Satan. Get back there, you whiny little shit. You try to get me to see the world from my limited view, and not a true one that God has. Pussy ass little serpent bitch. Hell-bent on taking down as many as you can while LOSING.

Because that’s all you have left. And you’re too fucking full of yourself to admit you’re the evil piece of shit at the party – and can only get those who can’t figure out that Crib World is only what it is.

😂 God Bless ADHD, whatever idiot over here is re: insomnia, and the world to come.

Done with it. If it’s my first time, or my thousandth. AI and neuralink brain implants mixed with economic collapse and authoritarian horseshit and eating zee bugs are what is to come, and I’ve spent enough time here.

Give me the wisdom to come Home.

And the same to all those I love and care about.

And thanks for the cats.

No matter how shocked they are they’ll have ear medication “for the duration”. 😂

I know, right? 😂

ADHD is a heckuva drug.

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