The bookstore is worth it, but wow do you miss nights like this, with a storm inbound, sitting under cover in the garage, as God’s power is on full display before you.
Back in West Virginia. Biz with contracting back on front burner after Alberta. Welcome surprise; hope business keeps booming.
Would love to take Flame to Con again. If she can make it. If it’s not one thing it’s another with health issues and hospitals.
You’re wise enough to not go without her. Going single is one thing. Going alone while in a relationship… well there’s a reason it’s called Nerd Mardi Gras.
She’s got to get better though. You’ve lost almost 30 lbs thanks to carnivore and gained some good muscle after a month of hauling around literally thousands of 35 pound machines. Next week is time for the 50 pound ones… and you’re stoked.
Thanks to AI , you can ask of any menu what would work best for your diet and eating out isn’t a problem anymore.
Easily in the best shape you’ve been in in decades. Money flowing, looking like it might continue to for a while thanks too of all people, Congress...
Things are going so well… for YOU …but so much is wrong. You’re getting distant from God. Again. 😒
You force yourself to start mornings with things like
Do you need to force prayer? It’s because you just don’t really want to read the Bible? Praying is easy. Studying the word of God is not. Ironically, one of your big hang ups when it comes to storytelling is, well… deserts.
You can’t stand deserts. You love water. It’s one of the reasons why you never got into Westerns. Land in every direction, and not a drop of water save for taking a saber to a cactus. How on earth did people live that way? In the holy land 2000 years ago or Arizona in the 1870s?
Stories of people in the desert. That’s basically the Bible. It’s times like this that Bible study groups move over to, say a CS Lewis book. No matter what, God deserves more and you know it.
The good news is that you know it, and by a sheer willpower are going to make sure you stay on the path because something is obviously trying to drag you off of it.
Why do you feel distant from God? Why are you having difficulty praying? Why are you having trouble staying on task and trying to focus on eternity instead of the mudball crib?
Who cares? Pray about it, find a solution and do it. Real problems are on their way because they always are. What kind of a man are you going to be?
With all of these gigs, it’s been difficult to get to church. YouTube helps, but it’s not the same.
Not that that would solve the problem either. The problem is you. You’re out of alignment with God. You don’t even really know what that means but you feel it’s true. Even the term is something you’re literally just making up to try to explain it.
You’re not in any danger of forgetting for one moment everything He’s done for you. The literal fortress of your foundation of faith stands strong thanks to the people who raised you.
You’re just a buffoon that can’t seem to build anything on that foundation. Well, maybe that’s too harsh. Whatever it takes to curb that arrogance with some self deprecating humor to make sure it doesn’t lead to low self-esteem.
These entries have always been a diary. It’s so liberating to share with the world your life. Things about it that you want to share with strangers, while doing everything you can to keep names and places private.
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Always start. Days pass. Can’t even remember where you left off. Eh, Good Problems… 😂
It’s Not a Frame of Mind 