Answers.

You prefer questions. Especially in matters of the spirit. The reason is simple – all else equal, you don’t know and will never know while on this earth. If you have a question and come up with an answer, He’s not going to appear and congratulate you for winning the daily double…

And in a universe where you are the creation, you have no idea the tools of the creator.

It’s funny that the Bible says that God created the heavens and the earth. Because of the time Genesis was written in, specifics of today really wouldn’t apply. It’s entirely possible that that only meant the solar system. Or the Milky Way. Or literally everything everywhere. Or just this version of reality. Probably something even more that you can’t even comprehend though. 🤔

So there is the eternal question then… Why? To which there is no real answer other than your cliché response…

One theory your Bible study group wants tossed out was that God is too majestic not to be worshipped… which is at the same time both true and probably still not the answer, lol… 😆 

Right now your running theory is that cliché…. “Why Not?”

One of a million things that has an answer, but it doesn’t matter. Very few of the answers actually matter.  I mean just your favorite analogy of trying to explain taxes to a housecat pretty much covers the idea of human beings attempting to comprehend their creator.

Maybe that’s one of the reasons why you put stock in evolution. That our species is supposed to evolve. That we are supposed to “level up”…  and maybe after a few more hundred thousand years, our species might actually evolve to a point where our brains can comprehend the next level in God’s little project.

Maybe that’s at a point when God reveals Himself to us in a way we can understand him in terms other than “God”.

Maybe that’s one of the reasons why you love SG-1. The benevolent Asgard were an advanced race of aliens who were friends of ancient humanity and sought to protect them, but the latter were to primitive to understand the former. So the Asgard projected illusions of themselves as great warriors to mimic the Norse gods… Leaving behind on many human worlds chambers of knowledge to test the human descendants.

Eventually one day said human society would advance to a point when the descendants of those cavemen could answer a question of a famous mathematical formula – at which point the Asgard would know they have reached the next step of development and would introduce themselves as what they truly were. 

Maybe it’ll be like that one day. Maybe not. 🤔

There is a reason for all things. God’s Plan. Ultimately that’s always the answer, which makes sense because it’s the most annoying answer possible.

Being able to just let go though… having enough trust in faith… anytime there is a conundrum of questioning what is right just and fair… always knowing “God Is Just”… You have so much less anxiety in your life because you have this faith.

It is rather disturbing though because honestly you do know that nobody’s really that great of a person… The human race isn’t exactly filled with saints and never has been. And even those saints had pasts…

God is Just. Jesus paid the price for our sins. Some people have a problem with that. “Why couldn’t God just forgive us?” “Why did Jesus have to go through all that”, etc.

Which is odd considering this society still holds true to systems of compensation, action and consequence, etc. Many scoff at the idea of offering sacrifices, etc, but it’s honestly no different than supply and demand at the end of the day. Jesus being the ultimate sacrifice ultimately squared it. 

Humanity’s collective sins are nearly infinite. Therefore only an infinite sacrifice would make up for them.

So many questions that made complete sense When you actually asked others wiser than you. Is there more to it than that? Of course. Why on earth wouldn’t there be? 😂

Redemption and peace. Jesus gave everything so we would have them.

Everything makes sense in a way that you just can’t explain to anyone else.  every single line of every conduit on that motherboard of motherboards ties together neatly in some greater construct that is existence.

So many things explained only in terms of your slightly evolved ape brain can understand. What do you need answers for? You wouldn’t be able to understand them. it’s all part of the wondrousness of Faith. You know that answer that annoys you. Faith in Him and His plan.

His plan. Our Free Will. Two things completely linked and separate at the same time.

There’s nothing you can say to help her. Nothing you can do. It’s between her and Him. He is her answer. Keep praying for her. Keep giving distance so He can work without your biases. Hold as true as you can so your prayers carry more weight. If she could only see what you saw in her… If she could only see…

Bullseye

How to destroy all that millions hold as Truth all in one fell swoop. No technicalities. No misinterpretations. No excuses.

No guts, no glory. 😂

The bullseye was painted on a faith’s back by the faith itself. What’s the point? Of this concept? That ceremony? Those ideals?

Salvation. And Home.

At the end of the day, there is no other point in having ‘Christ’ is Christianity.

So simple. Yet such complexity to the understanding. Ensuring that any could recognize it as otherworldly profound depending on their own personal understanding.

A simple-minded Thai rice farmer. An Ivy-League educated PhD candidate. The quest for understanding gives each as much as they may understand.

What ultimately matters the most.

And the way to discount everything it stands for, displayed for all to see… daring any to try.

Warspite would approve. 😂

Fear?

Something wants you to feel fear. You don’t have a clue what or why. You know it’s the dawning of a new time. So why hold back? It’s not about you. It’s about God, and her. You know the feeling of being in His presence. Just the two of you. How overwhelming it was.

You know you have fear because your mind is downplaying things. Distancing itself even maybe.

How do you know she’s going to “get it right”? If you live in such loving, warm certainty, why wouldn’t you want to be the one to barge in and voice all your concerns? Try to Micromanage her experiences?

You know… be stupid? Lol so easy to answer ones own questions. 😂

If she reaches out to God with all her heart… Seeks the salvation of Jesus… He will handle it.

Your fears are adorable… but worldly. And given your own struggles… It kinda just makes sense to let Him handle it. He is smarter than you most of the time. 🤔

Your fears come from the most caring place in your heart… but they aren’t helpful. They represent not having enough faith in God that you’re worried what might happen.

There’s a duality involved – as there always is. This must be her journey. But she can’t do it her way. You can’t tell her you’d do it differently. But you’re worried she might miss what God wishes for her be insisting on “her way” instead of His path.

Given the past, that’s understandable. But ultimately… This just isn’t about you. And so you wait. Anxiously like a kid at 4am on Christmas morning. You can tell because you’re distracted.

You’re worried she’ll “not do it right”.

What is the right way? Her listening to God. Talking with Jesus, not you. How do you know she’s really listening to God? Not something else?

Because… God. If you have faith in God’s actions, there’s your answer.

For once in your life… maybe the tendency to ignore stress will lead you to do what’s best – shutting up so she can hear God.

Every meal though. Prayer for her. Every few hours. Prayer for her.

Trust God. His plan. His will.

And trust her. Her future will be more joyful than her present… and she is on the path. 🙂

Now…

Right now the hardest thing on earth… is meaning it when you say you want her to find Home more than her to be with you.

It’s the truth. But just barely. It’s selfish. Be aware of it though. She has no idea what you see here and there in her words and her smiles. On occasion, Heart still fluttering. On occasion, Heart still devastated.

Heart doesn’t matter anymore. She does. Put God first. Then her. Then you. Accept the reality of the situation. Accept what you believe; not what you want. You want to hope? Hey, go for it. But if you fancy yourself a good man… be one. Be True.

Separating the two is hard. That’s fine. It’s when you need to choose that you must be True. Just be True.

It’s not about you, ya only child. Admit your weaknesses so you can address them.

Love. Such a complex thing. Never was before her. Now?

😂😂😂

Plank. Speck.

Our Father, who art in heaven,

hallowed be thy name;

thy kingdom come;

thy will be done;

on earth as it is in heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.

And forgive us our trespasses,

as we forgive those who trespass against us.

And lead us not into temptation;

but deliver us from evil.

For thine is the kingdom,

the power and the glory,

for ever and ever.

Amen.

Be. More. Worthy. There are no excuses for not knowing this from memory anymore. It’s more important than knowing your name.

Plank. Speck.

Warspite

HMS Bull in a China Shop.

It’s funny that very few people know the names of the captains were the sailors aboard Warspite. It’s the ship herself that’s the legend.

How could she not be? Bull in a China shop in two world wars. An entire German high seas fleet. To Warspite, it was in the way. A flotilla of rowboats to be trampled over like a knight galloping over infantry.

Nothing could kill this ship. Not even her own government in peacetime. They even tried and Warspite didn’t care.

Other ships were in the way? Warspite hit them. Rocks? Warspite hit them. Countries? Hit them.

Negative. Fucks. No matter what mishaps may have happened. No matter what the damage was. Terrible, demoralizing things would happen and Warspite gave Negative Fucks.

The pride of the Italian Navy named after Julius Caesar himself. Barely able to be made out on radar over the Horizon further than any battleship had ever scored a hit. Poor stupid bastard.

Goodness knows what happened earlier in the day to piss Warspite off, but when she got pissed off, she would wear out her guns being pissed off for long periods of time.

Adversity all around. Surrounded by death. What was tragedy to other ships was inconvenience to her. She took her share of hits and always had repairs to make, but no one was ever going to sink this ship.

Yeah, bad things happen. It’s how we respond that matters. Not everything can be bulled over like Warspite did to whatever sought to annoy it, but there is something to be said for solid, stout resolve. Maybe to find a better way of doing things. Maybe to find a second win. Maybe realizing wholesale change is needed.

Even Warspite got refits. But the Resolve… just the Resolve.

And how on earth she wasn’t American… 😂🇺🇸🇬🇧