It doesn’t technically begin until later this month, but wow today was just Gawjuss…

Weather is beautiful. Physically, mostly recovered. Bank account good with some extra after bills are paid and the store is getting more of a well-oiled machine each day. Given this new path, it won’t last forever and you have plenty of room to breathe for the moment.

Felt great getting out today. Felt brave and picked up some cat toys. So far, Ted is making the money spent wisely.😂

There’s a lot to be said for being able to just enjoy the little things like a perfect cloudless 67 degree day with the highlight, being picking up a new belt and sunglasses. The date-like-event fell through, but He’s in charge of that again now. It’s off your chest. Slight actual weight loss. Gonna pretend that’s why, lolz.

Happiness is a blessing. And when your heart can be filled with the joy of the Holy Spirit shining from the world that really matters, you can take the concerns of this world and table them. They don’t go away, but they don’t have to build up on you either.

It’s alright. Enjoy the respite. And be grateful for all of the simple blessings. When you actually look around, there are so many more of them than you realize… and when those rough days hit you like a freight train, you don’t see them.

It’s not like you really delve into that stuff here; this is the place to talk about things you actually have control over. So usually no politics, economic fears, culture war crap.

Just a good little place for reflection. There’s always gonna be tough stuff down the pipe though; so when things are good, just enjoy them.

For today, you can call yourself a great decision-maker…. Because Ted liked the mousy toy.😂

And who knew Electric Six nailed 80s covers? Top comment is right. It has no right to be this good… 😂

She’s never wanted to cuddle this much lolz

It’s fine; muscles are still aching, and probably will for a while. Lots of work to catch up on here. Store is doing really well. Just so happy at how things ended up going. Now you have some flexibility, and for at least a little while, and more productive sleep cycle.

And boy, is it calling 😂

Had Bible study tonight. John. Basic story you’ve gone over when you read it but it just was so much more alive. Glad you made it. Week is going well. Be grateful for everything. 🙂

One week down.

Each one of those things weighs 29 pounds. We’ve placed over 2,000. Arms bruised to various shades. Halfway done.

You’ve kept up with these horses, three of which are well-conditioned amateur MMA fighters.

You’re hurting more and more exhausted than they are, fighting through tendinitis and lack of conditioning, but you’re recovering well enough to know you’re going to be good enough for another week.

That feels good. You can’t wait to get home though. Store is taking off, and the folks are keeping up.

You told them you would put the store on pause, and dad said he had nothing better to do. They actually enjoy feeling useful. You really don’t deserve them. Glad things are the way they are these days; sure hasn’t always been that way.

Thank God they’re just going. Trust Him to keep leading you. Feels like you’re being tossed across a storm. Not adrift… just not sure where you’re going. Heavy seas, but she’s handling just fine.

Get some sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

Gray skies. Cold mud. Heavy physical labor. Every part of you hurts. Sleep comes easy though. Tough to even have hobbies when you’re this sore every day. 10 more days. Can’t wait to get home and it’s only been four.

Could always be worse. It’s enough money to do nothing the rest of a month and pay all the bills.

Missing home would be too much though.

More bruising tomorrow; get some sleep.

The money is going to be amazing. Dreading the trip though. Hate airports. Two weeks. Hotel room Very little to do. Rural Pennsylvania. Could definitely be worse. We’ll see how it goes.

A new journey is a new journey, though. No reason not to enjoy it.

The date isn’t be really with the Holy Spirit, and that needs to be a requirement going forward. Too bad.

Well, at least things are falling into place in the area you need them to the most. Things are gonna be fine. One thing at a time.

Give thanks for every blessing.

Decisions. The good news is you have a lot of options. The bad news is it doesn’t seem like it. Money will finally be coming in for the new store on the seventh. It’s not much yet, but it will definitely help.

One key decision you had to make was what to work on until things got back up and running. Hit the job market full bore, or bet on what you’ve built up in the last year or so and keep plugging with very low income with the new guy at the helm. Big talk. Other guy though he was doomed to fail. One path or the other. You couldn’t travel if you were pinned down.

Another potential opportunity to do something 1099 at a company a friend works with. If both could be done remote, you’d be in okay shape short term.

And while building the new store. Lean weeks. Lots of work. No money. Low income mode again. Nothing you can’t handle; like being 30 again.😂

Then, as they often seem to for you, the clouds part. Money for Pennsylvania starts coming in, and it’s now a grind to get HR into place in one week. Blog entries take days when you’re neck deep in OSHA regs. 😂 You’ll get your “old” job back and hit the field making even more. Store finally starting to earn at the same time.

So many small revenue streams. Some not as small as others. You feel like God is showing you an opportunity to move towards something more your speed, with a long-term goal of building something yourself. It’s a choice between that and just going back to what you’re familiar with, only this time get more money for your time at a job you don’t really care about to make a millionaire richer.

Good news is you’re actually not bad at these decisions when they present themselves. It’s the main reason why you’ve had a comparatively well off life.

There are endless examples of people born into great situations that constantly face hardship because they just couldn’t make a good decision to save their life.

You don’t have any ex-wives, never broken a contract, never spent time in jail for doing something stupid, or gotten sued. Have a good credit rating, and great relationships with really good people who look out for you as you do them, and yet when something is important to you, you still take risks. Like you just did.

Generally speaking, you’re gonna be okay if you do these things. Keep eating your vegetables lolz.

A friend wants to set you up with someone she knows from work. Someone who knows quickBooks lol. Who knows? Maybe this weekend.

Do a better job of being with God. Be grateful. Nothing you have is yours. Everything is a blessing.

You rolled the dice and looks like it’ll work, at least for now. Hold true, don’t tolerate drama, and keep pushing forward. Give glory to God for all you have. This life isn’t the one that really matters.

This brings so much peace and comfort tonight. A lone pipe, and yet surrounded by beauty ebbing and flowing in the background.

Dolphins are always swimming.

Blessings are always present.

God is always good.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding;

in all your ways know him, and he will make your paths straight.

Don’t be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and turn away from evil.

This will be healing for your body and strengthening for your bones.”

Proverbs‬ ‭3‬:‭5‬-‭8‬ ‭CSB‬‬

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

For we know in part and we prophesy in part,

but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears.

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me.

For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 4-13

You loved it. Her passion was just the beginning. Simple fact is you felt whole with her. Being part of her. Looking up at her powerfully making love to you. In bed. On the couch. By a roaring fire like you’re beside now. It felt… sacred with her. It wasn’t sex. It was so much more. Spiritual was just the beginning. How she enthralled you so effortlessly. Claimed pleasure from you so majestically while teaching you the meaning of fulfillment.

Every single time it was like every ounce of pain you had ever known was meaningless when she looked into your eyes moaning your name.

So powerful. Elegant. You could not believe you had found her. A lifetime of waiting for she who entranced your body, mind, and soul.

You never got used to her taking you inside her completely, as if you were a couple desperate to have a child together. It was like you couldn’t believe it was happening. Every. Single. Night. Day. Whenever. Because you had found the only woman.

Did she ever realize what that meant to you? What you were risking in the back of your mind? Either you were full of it all these years, or you were willing – knowing the risk she explicitly explained to you – to face the same specter of the literal greatest fear that injured you so long ago.

For her. Because she was her. Even now your body pines for hers, along with your mind and soul. Probably always will.

Until the day you die, you will know you were meant for her. You felt sure before you experienced bliss of being with her. After? No choice in the matter.

You wanted her to be your Guinevere, but she chose to be your Blanche Fleur. The only positive way to see that on a ‘chilly by southern standards night’ is that the pressure is off.

Whoever you find in the future will sing to you in some way you can’t imagine now. Life has already thrown you a curve ball or two since then. Maybe you’ve learned something; maybe not. Time will tell.

Yeah, sure it would be great if you could forget how happy you were. But when you really think about it in the grand scheme, why on earth would you want to?

As positive as you are, there is no reason to forget the happiness you had. The completeness of becoming one with someone who was literally your other half.

Who knows… maybe you’re wrong., and the best is yet to come. But if you aren’t? You got to experience true completeness on a level very few will ever know in this life.

The glass is half full… and always will be.

Thank God for the Joy your heart has. No matter what… It couldn’t come from anywhere else.🕊