Well things seem to be falling apart at work. Yay. Amazing how fast everything goes from endless possibility to thank goodness for free help in booking.

Whatever. Like everyone else, you work for utils, not money. Certainly not worried about you, but it’s your job to worry about the company‘s health.

Last weekend you’d found a property that would save the day, and blam, That fell apart too. Your track record for success does not seem to be very good lately. Might as well add that to the pile, but one thing at a time. There’s still possibilities out there for Oklahoma, Idaho, and Grande Prairie, Alberta. Yay.

But companies are cutting back on excess spending as the economy gets more uncertain. What can you say; people voted Democrat. Knowledge of economics is a curse if you don’t use the degree, lolz…

Trepidation about meeting with the CPA tomorrow. About what’s happening with work. About what you could’ve done different.

In all honesty, The answer is probably nothing, but for some reason that’s not a very satisfying thing to think… probably because we want to feel like we have more agency than we do. 🤔

Sometimes bad things just happen. The choice is between feeling helpless and feeling regret.

Long-term you’ll be fine. It just really would be nice to have something else going on to distract you. Someone else to help you through it and make you feel useful in helping her through whatever she struggles with.

Well, another weekend and another empty Friday night approach. Another weekend of wisely saving money. Getting ready to store a whole bunch of books.

Thank God you’re a positive person. 😂 This too shall pass. Might check the weather at table rock Saturday or Sunday. Just get out of town for a bit.

You really want to get to sea though. No it’s just not gonna be the same unless your steering. Can’t explain where that came from all of a sudden. A mountain is the opposite but who knows; maybe the whole thing is just you needing to talk to Him like you used to.

Ennui. Definitely not your first tangling with it. First time in a world in which you’re not waiting anymore, not that you realized that at the time. Could always be worse.

Vet visits for the cats scheduled in early December because everyone forgot how to do everything during Covid.🙄

Stop whining. Be grateful. Keep forcing yourself to look at those apps just in case. Supposedly you find someone when you aren’t looking… and it has been a long time since you really really really haven’t been in the mood to look.

Thanksgiving and Christmas are coming up. They’re going to be really tough. Try to give yourself a break. God has a plan for all things.

And regardless of where His plan goes, don’t ever forget to be grateful for so many things.

Especially thanks for the cats.🙂

Fear. Concern. Trepidation.

Breathe. It’s alright. The Holy Spirit misses you too.

Get meaningful sleep.

Just do it.

Be this guy soon. If only for a little while.

You really miss when you slept so well…

In a world that seeks to break our spirit, take from us our happiness and condemn us to sadness and destruction…

Optimism is glorious defiance. 🙂

Thank God for it…and everything else.

That weird feeling when an old song you always liked had an amazing video and was based on a beautiful poem you also liked all along and you just now realized it… 😂

Not a terrible Friday night. 😃

Yesterday was such a gawjuss day to enjoy outside. And you didn’t because there’s no reason to alone. Sigh.

Assuming just getting out to walk around, enjoy the weather and pick up bald peanuts doesn’t count… you won’t pass that up, but getting out out would have been great.

Another wasted weekend. The ups and downs at work are pointed down again, so it’s appropriate not to spend so much money; still you could’ve done something useful like volunteering with the animals.

Feel bad for missing church; you need to build relationships there. Woke up not feeling great. Most likely sinuses. Annoying. Not a sip of alcohol Saturday night and feeling hung over is just cosmically wrong.

Bald peanuts. Shampoo. Five hour energy and paying the tax on the stupid because Powerball is over 600 million. What a day.

Today was weird. Every direction you were going full speed at work is now potentially pointless for the time being. There’s cutbacks across every sector, thanks in large part to people acting and voting on emotion rather than what was best for people’s wallets. Society will learn, though… eventually. One reason you’re so grateful for the opportunities you have. Thinking about shutters again. Might be something there. 🤔

Organizing the garage tonight. Might have to move some stuff into there from work; hopefully temporarily. Not sure how to break it to the cats lolz…

Could always be worse. you’ve made a lot of money working at places you really weren’t happy at. This is so much more rewarding. And it’s not like you can’t find somewhere to be miserable at for money if you had to.

No real reason to if it’s just you though. Life‘s just too short. And if you are good at things you enjoy, and take a few calculated risks, Who knows what might happen? 🤔

Bible study tomorrow night. Hopefully you won’t be hung over from water for it at least.😂

Garage is a mess. Just a mess, not a mess mess. Not sure how much room you can make. We’ll see though.

Sad cats though…😕

Things are rough, and they’ll get tougher. Nothing you haven’t been through before. And there’s so much you’re still trying to make sense of… And some things that you never will understand.

Find a way to be the better for it. Let God lead you. Just shut up and let Him lead you. Find a way.

Hope everyone sleeps well tonight.

Who knew you could follow the Moon on social media. 😂

Another week dawns on a Monday morning you wake up with this in your head for reasons inexplicable and that’s probably for the best. 😂

So sing it in the shower. Enjoy your waffles. It’s back in the trenches with a CPA meeting first thing and be thankful that you have been given so much joy in your life.

Instantly a flash of a whole post idea. But there’s just no time this morning. Because Monday. Yay.

So… Second verse same as the first… 😂

I don’t understand, Lord.

I want that to be over.

I need it to be over.

But as You wish. I don’t get it. It’s not even holy. Whatever. Please let it help her.

Please just help her find You.

That would make everything worth it.

Literally everything.

Everything.

You need to get on the water. Whatever it is, it’s getting louder. And no, it’s not just because Alestorm put out a new album in July you just found out about.

Seriously not even away from shore, a freaking boat ride to Fort Sumter might do it.

Even though you wouldn’t steer.

Wait. Nevermind. Where on earth is this coming from?

Might just take a harbor cruise cheap solo or something. Just get it out of your system.

Would that work? C’mon. The idea is laughable.

Dunno. Friend visiting over the weekend. Guy that was wrecked by ex wife taking his kids away. That’s got to be priority. He always looked up to you. Trained him at his first job a lifetime ago. He said you reminded him of the Captain Pike from the new Trek stuff. He has great hair, so there’s that. Grateful for the compliment.

Whatever. Maybe He wants to talk to you out there. If so, then you need to go alone. That means saving up. No idea.

It’s been this way for almost a week now. Never felt it like this before. Beach walk was one thing. This is louder.

Well, you won’t solve it tonight. Just another bit of trying and failing to get a great nights sleep.

If it’s Him… something tells you you’ll figure it out soon. Or not. No idea.

About anything.

Maybe you never did.

You need to fix things, whatever’s wrong. If things are out of alignment… it’s kinda more on your end than on His.

Stormy seas and you’re being tossed about… by ennui. Lethargy. Uselessness. Make no mistake- spiritually these doldrums can be just as deadly.

Make something happen.

Stop acting like you can’t.

But in any case… thanks for the cats.

Ted seems to like this one.