That weird feeling when an old song you always liked had an amazing video and was based on a beautiful poem you also liked all along and you just now realized it… 😂

Not a terrible Friday night. 😃

Yesterday was such a gawjuss day to enjoy outside. And you didn’t because there’s no reason to alone. Sigh.

Assuming just getting out to walk around, enjoy the weather and pick up bald peanuts doesn’t count… you won’t pass that up, but getting out out would have been great.

Another wasted weekend. The ups and downs at work are pointed down again, so it’s appropriate not to spend so much money; still you could’ve done something useful like volunteering with the animals.

Feel bad for missing church; you need to build relationships there. Woke up not feeling great. Most likely sinuses. Annoying. Not a sip of alcohol Saturday night and feeling hung over is just cosmically wrong.

Bald peanuts. Shampoo. Five hour energy and paying the tax on the stupid because Powerball is over 600 million. What a day.

Today was weird. Every direction you were going full speed at work is now potentially pointless for the time being. There’s cutbacks across every sector, thanks in large part to people acting and voting on emotion rather than what was best for people’s wallets. Society will learn, though… eventually. One reason you’re so grateful for the opportunities you have. Thinking about shutters again. Might be something there. 🤔

Organizing the garage tonight. Might have to move some stuff into there from work; hopefully temporarily. Not sure how to break it to the cats lolz…

Could always be worse. you’ve made a lot of money working at places you really weren’t happy at. This is so much more rewarding. And it’s not like you can’t find somewhere to be miserable at for money if you had to.

No real reason to if it’s just you though. Life‘s just too short. And if you are good at things you enjoy, and take a few calculated risks, Who knows what might happen? 🤔

Bible study tomorrow night. Hopefully you won’t be hung over from water for it at least.😂

Garage is a mess. Just a mess, not a mess mess. Not sure how much room you can make. We’ll see though.

Sad cats though…😕

Things are rough, and they’ll get tougher. Nothing you haven’t been through before. And there’s so much you’re still trying to make sense of… And some things that you never will understand.

Find a way to be the better for it. Let God lead you. Just shut up and let Him lead you. Find a way.

Hope everyone sleeps well tonight.

Who knew you could follow the Moon on social media. 😂

Another week dawns on a Monday morning you wake up with this in your head for reasons inexplicable and that’s probably for the best. 😂

So sing it in the shower. Enjoy your waffles. It’s back in the trenches with a CPA meeting first thing and be thankful that you have been given so much joy in your life.

Instantly a flash of a whole post idea. But there’s just no time this morning. Because Monday. Yay.

So… Second verse same as the first… 😂

I don’t understand, Lord.

I want that to be over.

I need it to be over.

But as You wish. I don’t get it. It’s not even holy. Whatever. Please let it help her.

Please just help her find You.

That would make everything worth it.

Literally everything.

Everything.

You need to get on the water. Whatever it is, it’s getting louder. And no, it’s not just because Alestorm put out a new album in July you just found out about.

Seriously not even away from shore, a freaking boat ride to Fort Sumter might do it.

Even though you wouldn’t steer.

Wait. Nevermind. Where on earth is this coming from?

Might just take a harbor cruise cheap solo or something. Just get it out of your system.

Would that work? C’mon. The idea is laughable.

Dunno. Friend visiting over the weekend. Guy that was wrecked by ex wife taking his kids away. That’s got to be priority. He always looked up to you. Trained him at his first job a lifetime ago. He said you reminded him of the Captain Pike from the new Trek stuff. He has great hair, so there’s that. Grateful for the compliment.

Whatever. Maybe He wants to talk to you out there. If so, then you need to go alone. That means saving up. No idea.

It’s been this way for almost a week now. Never felt it like this before. Beach walk was one thing. This is louder.

Well, you won’t solve it tonight. Just another bit of trying and failing to get a great nights sleep.

If it’s Him… something tells you you’ll figure it out soon. Or not. No idea.

About anything.

Maybe you never did.

You need to fix things, whatever’s wrong. If things are out of alignment… it’s kinda more on your end than on His.

Stormy seas and you’re being tossed about… by ennui. Lethargy. Uselessness. Make no mistake- spiritually these doldrums can be just as deadly.

Make something happen.

Stop acting like you can’t.

But in any case… thanks for the cats.

Ted seems to like this one.

Well you’re just going to have to admit it; you’re on a backslide. Weight is back where you started. Good news is a lot of it is a muscle that you have built up, and it’ll be easy to get back into the groove, but it’s still so frustrating.

You’ve always been able to get a good thing going for a few months and then backsliding when it comes to your health. No one else is here to help, so it’s on you like it always is.

A lot of concerns at work have been addressed and you’re continuing to make headway there. Set up with supposedly amazing health insurance now.

You keep missing church. When so many of your problems seem to stem from just not being energized in your faith right now, that’s just got to stop. You’re not worried or anything it’s just… not exciting. Bible study tomorrow night. That’s different because it’s… don’t know, just different.

You keep fighting the urge to assume there’s one silver bullet it was home all your problems. Because even though that’s sort of true (re: getting your faith re-energized) you’re still gonna need to put effort into the other stuff also.

Not really sure how close you want to get to V. You had a great time with her at Con, but probably need to keep everything mentally in the friend sphere. Enough of those kinds of relationships. You need a woman with a desire to be close to God; goodness knows you need the help. It’s your fault for being so picky. Better than the alternative and crashing again though. Find someone freaking local too, geez…

Could always be worse. For whatever reason your passion for God is in the doldrums, figure it out. If there’s one thing you know it’s that you belong with someone that wants to share your journey.

Bible study tomorrow night. Get back in the stupid gym Wednesday. No excuses. Same plan as before.

You’ll be all right in time.🙂

And yet never when you need to be.

Something’s out of balance.

You’ll figure it out. 🤔

Feel like renting a boat. Wouldn’t be the same as holding the giant ships wheel and feeling the wind in your hair.

But you get to enjoy Bluetooth speakers in 2022. $500/day isn’t bad considering the small ones seat seven.

Autumn weekend sweet spots temperature wise are upon you. Might be a tall order to find a ‘crew’ anytime soon to join you considering you’re the only one with said interest… so maybe Springtime would be better.

But WOW that’s some Gawjuss weather coming down the pipe. Temps have been great for awhile. Stifling summer ended a bit early.

Maybe it’s just an urge today.

Again… 🤔🤔🤔